Hello everyone! I'm Maude and I'm almost 21 and i'm from New York. I've been reading this forum for a long time but I just decided to join. I started the band process around January when I went to the initial informational meeting. Since then I've had my psych eval, and endoscopy, all sorts of appointments and testing done and I'm pretty much ready to be banded. I can schedule surgery as soon as I lose 5 percent of my body weight. 5 percent of my body weight is about 12 pounds.
I never anticipated having so much trouble losing 12 pounds. My nutritionist (who is so patient and awesome) had me doing slim fast along with small meals and I lost 8 pounds doing this, then I gained about 6 back. I don't know whats wrong with me, I'm so dissapointed in myself. I want this more than anything and yet I can't even commit to it enough to lose 12 pounds.
I just want a normal life, I want to do the same things other people my age can do, I want to walk up a flight of stairs without being winded, I WANT TO GO SHOPPING IN A REGULAR STORE! I've been going through all sorts of fat girl lows lately. I went on a trip and was asked if I needed a seat belt extender on the plane, I take a yoga class and I cant do a lot of the moves other people do because my big belly gets in the way. I went kayaking last week and my butt was literally like stuck in the kayak, I had to do an awful whale roll onto the dock lol. I don't know what it'll take to get my butt into gear, so I'm turning to the people who I know will understand,YOU GUYS!
My mom had gastric bypass two years ago, and i know this is not an easy fix by any means. My mother used to weigh close to 300 pounds and now she's about 160 and bikes about 50 miles a day. My biggest fear is going through all of this and then failing. I'm sure a lot of people have that fear. I have over 100 pounds to lose.
SO let me ask, who else had trouble losing the preop weight? How did you get through it?
I'm hoping that checking in on this forum will keep me motivated!
