treck1200

I immediately felt self-conscious that I (for once) was the smallest person in the room. I almost felt like I was being judged and stared at for considering weight loss surgery. And I am sure it was perhaps mostly if not all in my head. I would say that to reach what I would consider being my ideal weight I would only need to loose about 65 lbs. Because of that I have not exactly received any type of support from my family, which makes me question whether or not this is something I need to do. I have battled my weight for years. The last year and a half I have been doing cross-fit training 5 days a week, counted calories for a while, did weight watchers for another while, walked and hour in the evenings and the most I have being able to loose is about 7 to o10 lbs. If I stop for even one or two weeks I gain it all back and then some. And although 65 lbs. do not sound like much, I am a short guy, and 65 lbs. makes it hard to even tie your shoes or get up from the couch. I also just turned 47 and I feel like I am running out of time to enjoy the last few years of not being super old and super fat. I am ok with getting super old, but I don't think I can deal with getting to retirement age and being so overweight I could not enjoy my retirement or the years I have before I get there. But the other side of this is that surgery seems so drastic, and it is definitely permanent. I worry about what it would do to me socially since food becomes such a big part of your life and suddenly you become that guy that can't handle a drink or eat a steak and then it gets awkward, I would think, or does it? What is social life like with family and friends after surgery? when you can't eat like they do? I am not concerned about craving the food, or never eating this or that again blah blah blah I know I can deal with that. I am concern about the social aspect, how do people react when you politely say no thanks I can't eat anymore when you only had a few bites? Anyhow, I know this sounds like a lot of whining, but would appreciate some feedback on social like after surgery and are there any regrets