Theresa64

Happy New Year everyone!
 
I made it through the Holidays without gaining an ounce. Not one stinkin ounce. No one was more surprised than me!
 
I am almost 5 months post-op (Roux N Y) and noticed that when I would get on the scale, especially after I indulged in Holiday-fare and sparkly drinks, I did not gain any weight. How is that even possible?!? The "FatVoice" in me said - wow - that's a freaking miracle. I dodged a bullet, lived to fight another day, beat the odds... all those things I tell myself as I am resolving to choose more wisely. Whew! Right - you've heard the inner voice I'm talkin about. But here's the thing - because I hadn't gained anything, I was pumped to make a better choice - even if it was just for the next 4 hours! I thought to myself - "get some protein in you!" For the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I have a "SkinnyVoice". It's not very loud yet - but I heard it say "You haven't blown it. You got this, Girl".
 
Obviously (because i'm still so new to the by-pass), I made healthy choices most of the time - but as I think back on the last 6 weeks. I felt full. My worry about weighing in was that because I was full I must've gained weight. right??? I got to the point where I would weigh myself when I felt full - just to see. And, whaddaya know - BEING FULL ISN'T THE SAME AS BEING FAT!
 
I get it now - I watched thin people when I was at parties or other social gatherings and noticed that they do not feel compelled to finish a bite. At one party, a really pretty woman ate EXACTLY 1/2 of her Peppermint Schnapps Parfait. I asked her about it and she told me that she had made up her mind BEFORE she took the first bite. Second epiphany, SKINNY PEOPLE HAVE TO WORK AT BEING SKINNY, TOO! wth?? I feel like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz when she gets to see behind the black curtain!
 
So, Water Always & Protein First - and for the Love of God - eat when you are hungry!

Wow! The dreaded holiday is coming to an end. I didn't do very well during the last three days. Golly, everywhere I went, food, food and more food. I don't know if I am the only one, but, it was hard. I did gain back three pounds, my own fault. (cookies and pies) the evil twins for me. Thank goodness, a new year..A fresh start.
 
I have been learning how to relax. Sound silly, but I have learned that stress is a huge start of my gain. So, I found some great tricks to calm myself down and relax in lieu of overeating.
 
The last few months were not going well for a lot of people in my family. We have faced with cancer, MS, and strokes. Knowing how stress and idle time leads to eating aimlessly to help time pass, or help people by cooking for them, eating with them..etc...I was just about to give it all up for the almighty "potato"...
 
I will continue to humble my life, and I will peacefully unfold the thinning person within. I don't require perfection, only the willingness to see the truth about the person I am now and strive to unfold the layers of fats and unworthy habits I had held on for years. I will from now on see each moment as a chance to make this change permanent, and be willing to forgive myself.
 
Stress is largely created by how we think about things and how much we pay attention to our own thoughts. My thought, always seeing myself as large, the voice in my head always telling me you are not strong enough well, I now laugh in the mirror and say " you are thin"..Stress had been pushing me right into failure; but, not anymore. I will be bring more peace and happiness into each day as it comes, and I continue to accept the peace and not fight it.
 
We are our own hero's (one who is aligned with one's true self) guided by something other than the thought-stream (the voice in the head). The hero is guided by another stream, which many have the flow. The flow is reality; it is what is actually happening her and now. It isn't something that is happening in someone's imagination or that something that happened long ago or something that will happen in the future. Hense, relaxing, maintaining that peace when everything look completely impossible will be my NEW outlook from now on..It is totally our decision to be a peace, or react and do the wrong thing, for me stress eating.
 
I hope this post doesn't sound too far out there, but,, I have letting the stress roll off my back, and taking of me and the pounds are starting to come off again..
 
 
 
Happy New Beginning