hotty.toddy

I feel like I'm carrying a hay bale. I have regained 30 of the 50 pounds I lost 2 years ago doing a medically supervised diet, aka Optifast. I stuck with it for 6 months, lost enough weight that I felt really good. I felt like I had the tools to continue on my own. I maintained for about a year, then I just gave up. I would eat crap and think, if I hit 200 pounds again, I'll buckle down. 200 came, then 207, then 212. I started panicking when I hit 217 and started keto for 3 weeks and couldn't sustain it. Not without quicker results. I contacted my weight loss doc and asked about WLS and was told without any comorbidities I didn't qualify with a BMI of 35. I would have to get bigger in order to have it done. What kind of crap is that? I quit my job about a month later. After sitting around, gaining another 10 pounds, I decided I'd had enough. I know I can't do yo yo dieting forever and this is for my health. My future, my children's future. I can't afford to gain more, become diabetic, have heart disease, etc. It's enough. I'm done.