ThirdTimeLucky

Hi all, well this is my first post. I am due to have Gastric Bypass in two days. I have been ok leading up to this point, but the nerves are starting to kick in, especially when I think of my kids and anything happening to me. Like everyone here, I have battled with my weight all my life. I did manage to lose the weight on my own through diet and exercise twice. The fist time I lost about 50kg (110 pounds) and then I put it all back on again. a couple years later I lost 65kg (140 pounds) and slowly put it all back on again. About three years ago (after a lot of convincing by my doctor) I had Lap-Band. It did not work. I lost a little bit of weight and then just stalled. My band was tightened beyond its recommended capacity but I could still eat a steak, however I struggled with a cold drink. So here I am trying Gastric Bypass. My biggest concern is that it won't work. I am going to give up sooo much and it might not work. It is like the universe wants me to stay fat. The short time that I experienced being thin is what motivates me. But to be honest I am just scared. The icing on the cake for me is that no one knows I am having this surgery, other than my wife and the doctors. My wife is totally against it, every time I tell her I am feeling anxious, she says "its not to late to cancel the surgery" so I am essentially on my own. I thought I would post here and reach out for a little support. Its been great reading all your posts, very helpful. Third time lucky! (I hope)