Gary, I have felt the same way you have before - dead serious.
Of course once I got my fills all set I realized there was a band in me and boy did it set me straight fast.
I do have control of my hunger now, I do need to watch what I eat and how to eat it - ugh - that can be painful some days if I am not careful.
Regardless of how you have lost the weight in the past few months that is absolutely amazing! that is a lot of weight to lose for sure.
Keep your chin up, get your fills, have faith - really, I know it sounds corney, but again I really felt the same way you do.