BigLuv

Hi I am here to look for someone. I am looking for a woman that felt good most of the time and had energy to get out of the house. If you think that I may be looking for my self your right. I miss feeling good and not being embarsed in public so I have started a quest to find my former self. This is where the how comes in. I have thought about Lap Band for years. People have talked me out of doing it because it might be dangerous. As if being over 300 lbs at 5'5 isn't dangerous! Anyway I have made up my mind. I want to do this ! Not for anyone else , for myself. So how do I get the ball rolling? I won't have insurance till july but thought I might learn what I need to do before I can get the surgery. My husband is one of the people that dose not want me to do this. He says he loves me for who I am and is not worried about me being over weight. Do the doctors make a big deal about spouses approval or disapproval? Will they do it even if your husband is stating he dose not want you to have it done? It dosn't help that my sister (the nurse) tells him and me about all the things that can go wrong.:cry I am so sick of living like this. I hope that there is some way I can get the help I need. I can't just do the diet and lose all the weight. I have a bad knee and can do any physical work out. I use a cane to get around when my knee is acting up. The doctor wan't to do knee replacment but said I need to loose weight first. I am only 44 but I feel like I am 75. So what's the first thing that would help build a good case so I can get this done once I get insurance. Untill I get the operation I guess I will work on trying to lose some weight or just eatting a better diet. TIAV BigLuv

I am a class room mom at my daughters school. I was there one day helping out when the kids started a who is the tallest in the class discussion. The teacher finally said ""No I am the tallest." Just then one of the children pointed at me and said " And she's the fattest." Before I could control myself I blurted out "And your are the rudest." Part of me felt like yea I finally said what I think to someone that hurt me! The mother part of me felt ashamed that I said something hurtful to the kid. There is always a war going on inside of me to do the right thing. I lost that battle. Man it's hard not to fire back at people that hurt your feeling. At the end of the day my daughter said to me "you told him Mom!. " I know that my being over weight is hurting her. That's what make me cry!