zahlis

Hi My Name is Zoela,
I've been battling weight since I was about 35. I was thin until I had my first child at 18. It became easy for me to gain weight with my established poor eating habits. I've always thought that I was fat even at 125lbs. I think it's because my mom was over weight and always talked about it. I've now managed to become what I've always thought I was, over weight, obese in fact. 2 years ago I went through the entire process of planning gastric sleeve surgery. I told all my family and they were pretty supportive but scared and negative. My daughter especially. She knew I could do it on my own. I was approved by my insurance and backed out.. Rejoined Weight Watchers meetings... That lasted less than a month. I got a back problem that was very painful and was not able to even get out of bed for a month.. I gained even more weight... I can't do this any more. I have recommitting to the surgery and have started the steps forward. I've gotten on here because I need help sorting out my thoughts. I'm out of control and eating even more. I've started reading some of the posts on here and it's wonderful to see that I'm not alone at all in the way I think..Thanks in advance for support