I can totally relate. I have my surgery in one week, this preop diet is kicking my butt. Just getting through it a day at a time. Evenings are the toughest, as I would always get takeout for dinner (and then snack until bedtime). I'm grieving, as well. I think that this is perfectly normal! Think of all the wonderful things this surgery will bring to your life--that's what I keep telling myself. Hang in, this will be so worth it. (I'm excited to get on a plane for the first time after losing my weight!)