I have lost my own personal 100 pounds 3 times in this life. It's not easy to lose, but as we all know it is sure easy to regain to pounds back. The last time I lost my own personal 100 plus pounds and almost regained the entire 100 lbs. back. I thought I am not going to play this movie again. I did extensive research (1 month) I was in a state of mind..."This has to be the last time". I came across WLS what a concept...I don't know why I never thought of that. or maybe I did. But that couldn't mean me I only weigh 200 or 250 depending on where I was in my "weight on" or "weight off" stage. What was I thinking? It all sounded so easy. I never considered Insurance. At the time I had gained 50lbs. back so I was at the 205 mark, and I did not want to have to gain all the weight again another 50 lbs. I know it gets murkey when I ramble on. I called a patient coordinator in Mexico and set my surgery date for 01/21/08. I gathered the required cash and my daughter and we flew down to Old Mexico. The rest is history. Some people on chat room have made comments that I only have 60 lbs to lose and I don't know what it's like to have to lose lots of weight. I never defend myself I just let them blather on. Oh I have made friend on chat room and LBT. Some of the guys "get it" and understand that losing weight is a commitment and it's all relevant to each person's personal WL journey that we all struggle with.
What is the contridiction? You can never tell what company you are in. I have lived many lives...I have lived the life of a slim person for many decades. I have been in the beauty business, real estate business, and my husband was in the oil business. I have lived in many states and many different countries. I have lived an International lifestyle. We had access to our own private company jet.
I have gone through my depression period.(personal loss of a loved one) a time of deep dispair where I did not leave my house for many month on end. I should call it my incognito period. I did not want to see anyone or be seen by anyone. I just wanted to be a ghost.
Then I have my morbid obseity period where everyday is a choice of good food or the evil choice of the dispised "sweets". Why do we crave it. It is like a drug we can go for months without even a thought of the evil sweet taste. Then one little taste and we are hooked all over again. I am the original midnight stalker...of my cupboards where the dreaded candy used to reside.
I am proud of my many achievements, I am an adopted mother to a beautiful 29 yo daughter. I have been a sucessful business woman. I have a doveted supportive husband. We live in a nice home surrounded by grand vineyards with hill and mountian views. I still enjoy the company of my 92 yo mother. I am from a large family and have many friends.
This past year has been both a challenge and a world of new adventures. I have had to learn how to live by the WLS rules. Not always an easy task. I have been filled, over filled, unfilled, drained, and dusted offf like an old rubber tire. But what would I do without my friend my "little rubber band"? And what would I do without my friends on LBT? Thank you eveyone for your kind support.
I will be attending my daughter's wedding this April. I have ordered and will be wearing my size 8 gown. We are so greatful for the many blessing our family enjoys.
Oh did I mention I was 67 yo on my last birthday. Everyone tells me I look much younger. We used to live in Hawaii hence the name "Sandy Beach" that's where I learned to surf. (as a much younger girl)