mhazelrigg

Hello! Sid is my doctor and I think he is awesome! He banded me in February 2008. When are you going to have your surgery?

Ok VV's! I left for a while, but I realized that I NEED support! I see a few familiar faces and names! Long story short, I got my band February 8, 2008. Love it!! I did awesome. Lost all my weight and then about the last 20 pounds I thought I needed a fill. I didn't. It really only made me throw up....a lot! Then I started using the puking as my weight loss method. After my dentist and my family doctor told me that I needed to get an unfill, and everyone I knew thought I was sick and so thin, I went to the doc and had them take a little out! Then I ate. And ate. And ate. And gained almost 40 pounds. I am still tight. In fact, without a fill, I have found that I am tighter in the last few months than ever before. I need to re "think" my choices. I am back to throwing up a couple times a day, and the thought of doing this anymore is scary to me, almost as scary as getting more fluid taken out and maybe gaining more weight! So here I am. Back where I should have stayed. Needing help and support from my VV's, once again.

OK, I will admit, it is harder to get on here when I am not losing. And since I haven't had a fill since last May, I haven't really been thinking about it. I am about 30 lbs until I reach my goal. But, I have gone down from a 24 to a 14/16. I am pleased, but I want to be more pleased. Another problem is, I have a serious issue with what my body looks like. When people tell me that they can tell that I have lost weight, I can still only see me as I was before. No matter how much I have lost, I see the same girl in the mirror. I am not sure that any amount is going to make me happy. Also, I can't seem to get enough calories in. I think that I am not losing because I am not eating. But I am not hungry. And I force myself to eat nuts and yogurt, but I am just not hungry. Any suggestions?

I can do this. My date is 2/07. I have been playing with a few pounds for the last month or two. My goal is to lose 5 pounds by that date. That is do-able. Right. I tell myself that I am going to start going back to the gym, and I hate going, and I know that is the only way to jump start this....... 5 pounds....5 weeks.....I can do this. I can do this. I will do this.

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is awesome! Can you believe where you were a year ago? Seems like a lifetime doesn't it.

OK, I am back too. I have been playing around with the same 5 pounds for the last month. Maybe because I tend to eat really healthy, and then eat 4 peanut butter cups or a couple of fattening cookies. (Who am I kidding, I ate 8 of them today, yes, the whole package.) I am not really making a New Year's Resolution, but I am making a decision...... I can either LOVE MYSELF or HATE MYSELF. And everytime I look in the mirror and see my failures, instead of my sucesses, I am hating myself. I am going to stop that!! I am going to be happy with the weight that I lost, and stop punishing myself for those pounds that could have come off. Almost one year.....Remember this time last year when we were talking about our insurance and our liquid diets. If we need a reminder about how far we have come, we should visit the VV's of 2009.

Hi everyone!! I am just coming off a month long plataeu, but I think that I am doing okay. I need to get my butt off the couch and start excersising or I am going to have lots of hanging skin. Last week I got sick and stayed in bed for 2 days and woke up to find I lost 3lbs. Unfortuneately, they found their way back and brought a friend! Can you believe how far we have come? It is amazing! RSG, you say that you are a slow loser, but I can tell in your myspace pics that you have lost! You look happy!

OK girls, I haven't posted in a while, but I have something to give up. And when I tell you, I know that although you will understand, you will question it. I have to stop drinking so much diet Coke. I love it. I need to drink Water. I just love diet Coke. My doctor said I could have it, in moderation. I am not sure that 2 bottles a day is moderation. But it is down from the 3-4 bottles that I had before my surgery. I have been at the same weight for a couple weeks now. And I am thinking that if I switched to water, I would lose some water weight and that might make me feel better. So I am going to only have ONE bottle of diet coke each day. The rest will be water. But do those packets that make the water taste like I am having something else make me a cheater?

Lori, I live in Decatur!! Are you having your surgery in Clinton or Champaign? Dr. R is awesome! I am very happy with my surgery results so far. I have several friends who have used him and we are all having sucess!! If you want to PM me, I can give you my number if you need anything.

Hello, I have to share this with someone who "gets" it....... I had an interview this morning and yesterday I was trying on my clothes. Nothing fit. I looked like a 6 year old trying on her mom's dresses. So I went to my favorite store, CJ Banks to buy something new. Nothing there fit. So I had to go to the store's regular size counterpart, Christopher Banks, to buy clothes. I was SO surprised to find that most of the XLs were too big. The larges fit nicely and a couple of mediums worked too. I am really small from my waist up, so it was a pleasant surprise, but not overwhelming. I tried some pants on. Turns out that a 18W is too big, but a 16 reg is a tiny bit too tight! I am right in between sizes. I hated that I couldn't find any pants, but I was able to buy new tops. Then tonight I went to the store to get some socks for my vacation that starts tomorrow. I saw a really cute pair of capris on sale, and they were in the regular clothing section. I tried them on.......and they fit!! If I only had a job, I could really go crazy, but alas, my children want to eat this summer. Tomorrow is the first time I will see my family since the surgery. I am nervous to see what they say. They will be nice, of course, but still........ I have to learn the sizes of clothes all over again. It is a nice problem to have.:redface:

You look great! But honestly, if I had seen the two of you on the street, I wouldn't have guessed you to be his mom!

Karen, Welcome!!! We have been waiting for you to get here! It is a great feeling to break through that. I had a little party for myself that I called, "No Two's". Now it won't be long before you leave us here because you and some hot motorcycle dude, maybe your dh, are spending all your time at the beach! In a bikini!

I am going to Detroit to see my family next weekend. This have been playing with the same 3 lbs for the last week. My goal is to exersise and lose 3 lbs by next Saturday when I leave. Also, my DH works for Nike, and he bought me a pair of capris that I wanted. They are way too tight. They are an XL, but in misses, so the cut is different. My goal is to be in those capris by the end of July. Good luck everyone!!

OK VV's!! I got the Wii Fit today. Actually I got two of them. I thought my BFF wanted one, but she picked one up too! Let's get that thread started! I am going to play with it today, I wouldn't even know how to do the challenge. Melanie, maybe we can work on that today!!! Tara, if you haven't found one, I have an extra. I don't know if it worth it with shipping, but maybe! Let me know!!