Julie*

10 pounds down and I screwed up today. I took the kids to Friendly's for dinner and was going to have a salad and diet coke. Well, I just lost it when I saw the menu and ordered buffalo chicken fingers and a BLT and proceeded to eat it. I don't know why- I was wracked with guilt and actually felt very sick by the end. That was an hour ago and I've had diarreah 4 times since. Yuck and now of course the negative self talk keeps happening. I will NOT screw up the next few days of this liquid thing. I just don't know why I choose to set myself up to fail. this is something I struggle with. do I not deserve to lose the weight? why not? I do deserve it and sometimes we make mistakes. I told my thin sister and she told me to stop feeling sorry for myself and move on. She said she overeats too sometimes but the difference is that she doesn't beat herself up and think she's a bad person like me...... why can't I just be normal?

10 pounds down and I screwed up today. I took the kids to Friendly's for dinner and was going to have a salad and diet coke. Well, I just lost it when I saw the menu and ordered buffalo chicken fingers and a BLT and proceeded to eat it. I don't know why- I was wracked with guilt and actually felt very sick by the end. That was an hour ago and I've had diarreah 4 times since. Yuck and now of course the negative self talk keeps happening. I will NOT screw up the next few days of this liquid thing. I just don't know why I choose to set myself up to fail. this is something I struggle with. do I not deserve to lose the weight? why not? I do deserve it and sometimes we make mistakes. I told my thin sister and she told me to stop feeling sorry for myself and move on. She said she overeats too sometimes but the difference is that she doesn't beat herself up and think she's a bad person like me...... why can't I just be normal?

Hi, I am on a 10 day liquid diet right now in anticipation of my surgery on Tuesday. Honestly, it hasn't been easy but it's been doable if that makes sense. I have been drinking 3 slim fast shakes per day and can also have crunchy vegetables but that is it. Honestly, the shakes give you the nutrients that you need and if you drink lots of Water then that should help the headaches. Like Anne just posted above- weighing myself daily has been a huge motivator! Good luck.

I also have PCOS but was able to get pregnant twice with fertility help. I hope you are as lucky after you are banded. My doc asks people to wait one year after being banded to get pregnant. You may want to check this with your doctor though. Good luck!

Hi Everyone- Wow, we are all doing great. I am down 10 pounds from last week and don't even have surgery until Tuesday. The liquid diet is hard but I'm doing it- that in itself is a miracle. Good luck with everyone as they have their surgeries and recover.

That is awesome! Thanks for such a positive and encouraging post.

No, you weren't too harsh. I would be really upset too. I am day 5 into my 10 day pre-op liquid diet and I have just decided that I am extremely lucky. My DH is drinking the liquids with me for dinner so I won't feel alone. He said it's great b/c it helps me and helps him lose a few pounds too. Personally, I think there is a time for jokes and trying to lose weight before or after having surgery is not one of them.

Today was much better. In fact, I barely felt any "real" hunger. The head hunger is pretty rough but even that is better than yesterday. I think that I actually believe that I can do this and that is a miracle. I have been doing so much thinking and I can't believe how this weight has really cost me my confidence, self-esteem, and joy. I finally feel hope and I'm going to roll with it.

Today was much better. In fact, I barely felt any "real" hunger. The head hunger is pretty rough but even that is better than yesterday. I think that I actually believe that I can do this and that is a miracle. I have been doing so much thinking and I can't believe how this weight has really cost me my confidence, self-esteem, and joy. I finally feel hope and I'm going to roll with it.

I'm day 4 (almost day 5) into my 10 day liquid diet and I've lost 6 pounds. This is really hard though and like Stacey I am also STARVING!!! It's worth it though and kind of fun to see the scale plummet for once in my life. LOL

I also find this very interesting. Do you have a link by any chance?

I fibbed too and I have no worries about it and I am pretty close to my boss and co-workers. They all know I've been trying to lose weight even before the band so I don't think they'll put 2 and 2 together. They think I am having a hernia repair surgery.

My husband, parents, sister, and best friend know. Other than that everyone thinks I am having a hiatal hernia repaired. (semi-truth, LOL) I have a 10 day liquid diet and I needed that to be out in the open at work so I just explained that it was part of the fix for the hernia.

Today I am really hungry. I thought it was supposed to be easier by day 4 but not yet. I'm hanging in there but I think I might have to go to bed really early tonight. :notagree I just hope that doing this liquid diet will help me to understand and control that initial hunger that I keep reading about that seems to happen a few days after the surgery. I wonder if the ppl who are hungriest are those who didn't have any sort of pre-op diet? I imagine that the hunger I feel now is the same hunger they feel post-op? Who knows but it is food for thought. The thing I am worried about giving up the most is soda. I really love Diet Coke- I love the fizz. I figure that I am just going to be done with it and we won't have it in the house anymore. Mark said he'll drink it at work and won't care if it's at home or not. I am happy that Em and Myles won't see me drinking soda all of the time anymore. I'm not a very good role model for them in that aspect. Julie

Today I am really hungry. I thought it was supposed to be easier by day 4 but not yet. I'm hanging in there but I think I might have to go to bed really early tonight. :notagree I just hope that doing this liquid diet will help me to understand and control that initial hunger that I keep reading about that seems to happen a few days after the surgery. I wonder if the ppl who are hungriest are those who didn't have any sort of pre-op diet? I imagine that the hunger I feel now is the same hunger they feel post-op? Who knows but it is food for thought. The thing I am worried about giving up the most is soda. I really love Diet Coke- I love the fizz. I figure that I am just going to be done with it and we won't have it in the house anymore. Mark said he'll drink it at work and won't care if it's at home or not. I am happy that Em and Myles won't see me drinking soda all of the time anymore. I'm not a very good role model for them in that aspect. Julie

I'm not even banded yet but I do have years of dieting, deprivation, binging, and overeating under my belt. I wanted to comment on a couple of things. First of all, Kryssa, I think it's just awesome that your husband is being so supportive. My husband has been the same way and in fact is on the bandwagon for weight loss himself. Plus, we have 2 small children to think about. My lifes goal now is to be the best role model I can for them so I have found it's much easier to walk away from food that will also be bad for them. I believe also that we can't and won't always find the answers to the questions: Why do I bring this food into my house or why do I eat so damn much? (Fill in the blank with whatever question you want answered). Sometimes it's just about behavior modification IMO. I know that I overthink things SO much but then I find it's just a way to avoid the behavior that I know is better for me. I think now that I will never understand or have a definite answer about why I became morbidly obese. I don't care as much now as long as I am able to modify my behavior- I figure if I can get to a weight that I am happy/healthy and maintain it then the reasons won't be as important. So, keeping junk food (ie: Trigger foods) is a very important part of this. I agree that I want my home to be the safe place, free of temptations and for me this means keeping the foods I have a harder time controlling out of it.

Well, I am losing weight with the pre-op diet so that is the good news right? Actually, it's weird because I am really hungry but almost feeling like I am starting to let go of these demons that keep telling me I can't do this. I think it's because I am on day 3 of the liquids, haven't cheated once, and am feeling a bit proud of myself. It sure is a constant struggle and I hope it gets easier on day 4 but I have faith that I will do it. Plus, a real bonus would be to have the surgery 10 pounds (or so) lighter than I am now! Otherwise, Mark and I are just trying to work out the logistics of the week. We mainly need help with the kids and getting them home and stuff. Thank God for family support. My parents are being amazing. My Mom even came to work today to have lunch with me and brought her own shake. :eek:

Well, I am losing weight with the pre-op diet so that is the good news right? Actually, it's weird because I am really hungry but almost feeling like I am starting to let go of these demons that keep telling me I can't do this. I think it's because I am on day 3 of the liquids, haven't cheated once, and am feeling a bit proud of myself. It sure is a constant struggle and I hope it gets easier on day 4 but I have faith that I will do it. Plus, a real bonus would be to have the surgery 10 pounds (or so) lighter than I am now! Otherwise, Mark and I are just trying to work out the logistics of the week. We mainly need help with the kids and getting them home and stuff. Thank God for family support. My parents are being amazing. My Mom even came to work today to have lunch with me and brought her own shake. :mad:

I weighed myself today and I am hoping that this is the highest weight that I ever see for the rest of my life. Mark is going to take a picture of me later in my bathing suit and I'm going to jot down my measurements tonight when I take a shower. This way I know exactly where I am starting from. I am very hungry- slim fast is just not that filling. I am just trying to work my way through each minute. Mark is being great- he's grocery shopping with Emily right now so that he and the kids have food and I don't have to even think about it. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I am having surgery in 9 days. It doesn't quite seem possible.

I weighed myself today and I am hoping that this is the highest weight that I ever see for the rest of my life. Mark is going to take a picture of me later in my bathing suit and I'm going to jot down my measurements tonight when I take a shower. This way I know exactly where I am starting from. I am very hungry- slim fast is just not that filling. I am just trying to work my way through each minute. Mark is being great- he's grocery shopping with Emily right now so that he and the kids have food and I don't have to even think about it. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that I am having surgery in 9 days. It doesn't quite seem possible.

Honestly, I am almost relieved to be starting my 10 day liquid diet tomorrow for that very reason. Every meal has been a fight with myself to eat healthy recently. Yes, it's like wanting to taste it all for the last time. I just keep reminding myself that the band is about portion control, not constant deprivation. At least now until the surgery I can only have liquids. I finally don't have to think about it anymore! Good luck to you- I hope your loan comes through soon.

I had my pre-op appt today and it went well except that it lasted for 3 hours. :help: Most of the time I was waiting to see the different people that needed to see me so it was really tedious. I am all set though and unless something significant shows up in my blood work (which I can't imagine it would!) then the surgery will be at 10am on 2/21. I start the liquid fast tomorrow and have decided to let go of all of the anxiety that I have surrounding it. Yes, I am going to be hungry, yes it's going to be hard and yes I am nervous. BUT I can't let it rule all of my thoughts over the next 10 days. I am going to focus on the fact that I am preparing for a new life and it's time to start learning how to shake the grip that food has on me. I am ready to take off the fat suit and find me again.

I had my pre-op appt today and it went well except that it lasted for 3 hours. :help: Most of the time I was waiting to see the different people that needed to see me so it was really tedious. I am all set though and unless something significant shows up in my blood work (which I can't imagine it would!) then the surgery will be at 10am on 2/21. I start the liquid fast tomorrow and have decided to let go of all of the anxiety that I have surrounding it. Yes, I am going to be hungry, yes it's going to be hard and yes I am nervous. BUT I can't let it rule all of my thoughts over the next 10 days. I am going to focus on the fact that I am preparing for a new life and it's time to start learning how to shake the grip that food has on me. I am ready to take off the fat suit and find me again.

I'm really sorry that happened to you. I think that it's very important though that you or your husband call the resteraunt as was suggested and explain what happened. At the very least the manager should apologize on behalf of his idiot employee. I agree that I would never frequent that place again.

Hi- My surgery is on February 21st. I have lost 3 pounds but hope to lose more once I start the liquid diet on Saturday. My surgeon is Dr. Patrick Forgione in Burlington, Vermont. I am the second patient receiving the band that day in the brand new banding program in the state. A proctor from INAMED is also going to be there.