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she sent me a text, it says her left side is paralized and she's in hospital. i don't know any more than that, not even what hospital. I just want to cry, she's such a beautiful person.. and i've never even met her.. x

I know we've been banded and i know we're gonna be healthy and beautiful... but i think the message in this ad is awesome about self acceptance regardless/.... we've beaten ourselves up for way too long, and how about loving yourself thin... i mean accept you have your faults, take time to work on them, smooth out the crinkles and it will come in time.. but we are all beautiful in our own way and fat, skinny, tall, short, black , white, purple, it's important to recognise your diamonds (the things that make you shine) ... anyways thats my touchy feely ness for today.. love jess

GREENEYEZ:: my friends all up me when i call it FAT KATIES and FAT ROCKMANS (beme) and i'm like its true!!! i love CITY CHIC - i so am going to briz when i get smaller.... i think i might give myself like a halfway reward!! ha ha ooooh clothes.. how i love them.. watchout EBAY for all my fat stuff i say.. xoxo c'mon girls... we can do it.. in fact we already are....

nat we have only target country and it SUX!! there's about 6 items of fatgirl stuff and EVERYONE has it.. so awful... butnot for long.. i will be a mini in months.. watch out Biloela.. xxx

So.. i started my WLS journey in October, the 29th to be exact.. i attended Dr Andrew Russell's rooms in Rockhampton and said "I want a lapband". I met with the Clinical Nurse - who took all my history and weighed me - omg the scales.. i was tipping them at 154kg... THAT IS A LOT!!!! then i met with the Dietician, she was really really good, and weighed me also, where i tipped the scales at 152.7kg.. i like her skales better.... So i met with Andrew the next day, he ran me through the basics and i was like YES YES YES.. BUT!!! i can't get time off till January... so we set a date for Jan 14th 2008.... and then within next to no time it was CHRISTMAS ya ya So i gorged myself at Xmas.. and in the time between nov and nye i put on 3 kgs... eeek... so i OPTIFASTED myself stupid.. and dropped 8.5kg before surgery..... So i go to the hospital - self pay so handing over $7000 was HARD..... we pay the anaesthetist, the surgeon, another $5000.. EEEK this had better work... I was nervous, DB was nervous, it was all very stressful.... so i sent him away... i said go shopping, spend money, do what you have to do.. just go away.. i didn't want him to see me cry.... so he left.. kissed me told me he loved me and left.. all okay... So i wrote letters to my loved ones, and a missive to be read at my funeral if i died... and you know what it had this calming effect, like "phew" and i could breathe again... So about 1pm they give me pre-meds, then they take me down to theater about 1.45.. and the next thing i know i wake up, i hurt and they give me sweet morphine.. have i mentioned i love morphine.. well i do when i hurt that much..... about 5 i see DB again and i love him, but i can't stay awake, i feel sore and dry and yuck.. but i know its worth it.. i know it is.... we all know the post surgey stuff.. cottonmouth king i was.. and slow and turtle like in all my movements.... so its 5 days out from my op now, i've been souping, smoothying, water, juice, whatever i can get through a straw - nothing thicker than a mackas thick shake i figure... and nothing chunky.. oh i want to chew, but hey i lost 1.5 more kg so that makes 10 all up in 3 weeks.. i persevere i persevere!!! I am happy i have done this, I KNOW it will be HARD, i know i will have days where it depresses me.. but u know what, the results will be worth it... In 18 months i WANT to be able to and WILL be able to: 1. buy clothes off the rack that look good 2. be a size 16, maybe a 14 (i'd be happy) 3. have a baby.. or at least get pregnant... 4. start looking for wedding dresses.... eek.. i want to marry DB... 5. have ppl realise that i'm not just fun, i'm hot (okay so thats vain, but f*ck it i don't care) so thats my list.. today i am positive... and i hope to remain so... thanks for listening x

So.. i started my WLS journey in October, the 29th to be exact.. i attended Dr Andrew Russell's rooms in Rockhampton and said "I want a lapband". I met with the Clinical Nurse - who took all my history and weighed me - omg the scales.. i was tipping them at 154kg... THAT IS A LOT!!!! then i met with the Dietician, she was really really good, and weighed me also, where i tipped the scales at 152.7kg.. i like her skales better.... So i met with Andrew the next day, he ran me through the basics and i was like YES YES YES.. BUT!!! i can't get time off till January... so we set a date for Jan 14th 2008.... and then within next to no time it was CHRISTMAS ya ya So i gorged myself at Xmas.. and in the time between nov and nye i put on 3 kgs... eeek... so i OPTIFASTED myself stupid.. and dropped 8.5kg before surgery..... So i go to the hospital - self pay so handing over $7000 was HARD..... we pay the anaesthetist, the surgeon, another $5000.. EEEK this had better work... I was nervous, DB was nervous, it was all very stressful.... so i sent him away... i said go shopping, spend money, do what you have to do.. just go away.. i didn't want him to see me cry.... so he left.. kissed me told me he loved me and left.. all okay... So i wrote letters to my loved ones, and a missive to be read at my funeral if i died... and you know what it had this calming effect, like "phew" and i could breathe again... So about 1pm they give me pre-meds, then they take me down to theater about 1.45.. and the next thing i know i wake up, i hurt and they give me sweet morphine.. have i mentioned i love morphine.. well i do when i hurt that much..... about 5 i see DB again and i love him, but i can't stay awake, i feel sore and dry and yuck.. but i know its worth it.. i know it is.... we all know the post surgey stuff.. cottonmouth king i was.. and slow and turtle like in all my movements.... so its 5 days out from my op now, i've been souping, smoothying, water, juice, whatever i can get through a straw - nothing thicker than a mackas thick shake i figure... and nothing chunky.. oh i want to chew, but hey i lost 1.5 more kg so that makes 10 all up in 3 weeks.. i persevere i persevere!!! I am happy i have done this, I KNOW it will be HARD, i know i will have days where it depresses me.. but u know what, the results will be worth it... In 18 months i WANT to be able to and WILL be able to: 1. buy clothes off the rack that look good 2. be a size 16, maybe a 14 (i'd be happy) 3. have a baby.. or at least get pregnant... 4. start looking for wedding dresses.... eek.. i want to marry DB... 5. have ppl realise that i'm not just fun, i'm hot (okay so thats vain, but f*ck it i don't care) so thats my list.. today i am positive... and i hope to remain so... thanks for listening x

i'm turning 28 in a week... i wish i'd done this sooner... i've been on EVERY diet my whole life - i should have shares in WW. but cause i never got any results i never stuck to it. I need that physical reminder not too overeat.. as do many! I wish i'd done this younger, at 19 or 20.. when i had less to lose and could have maintained easier. There is a furore at the moment because the AMA wants to support WLS for MORBIDLY OBESE teens in AUSTRALIA. i think its a great idea (apart from the fact that the waiting list will be ridiculous).. these kids need a hand taking charge - its not a quick fix, you still need to control what goes in your mouth!!!

oooh cherry!!! that is so great!!!! WE DID IT - no chickening out now! i've started losing which is good.... hope you are feeling better!! i'm only a bit sore and dealing with gas.. i can cope with these things!!! much love j

greeneyez!! i am sure you're as uncomfortable as i am, but do you also have this great sense of 'right'. like i know it hurts now but it was the right thing to do? i hope so! i just made some nice thick chicken soup - it can still be taken through a straw so i'm gonna have that for dinner later... yum.. but surprisingly NOT hungry.. thanks everyone for your support... much love jess

hey all, i'm weirded out!! i got banded same day as josh!! haven't really eaten anything but was on drip for 24 hours! now on my slow fluids! i put on a kilo!! how is that possible?? could i be retaining that drip fluid?? eek very upsetting... i bought some infacol (anti gas for babies in a liquid) and some painstop and have found them both helpful.... feel so positive about the band.. bring on weightloss i say have a great day everyone!!! x

aaah optifast... i'm 3 days in to my pre op diet - i'm really struggling.. and i've left it so late to start... i'm keeping to under 900c per day.. oks that okay? or too much i can do this can't i?

:biggrin:I can't believe its finally here - i'll never sleep tonight.. eeeek i'm so anxious and excited and nervous and a million other things! anyways - i think i'm ready :tongue:jess:tongue:

ahhh thanks guys.... i just want it all to go smoothly.. i'm sure we'll be fine!! :greeneyez: yay to being buddies.. i've got a bit more to lose than you (but thats not important) if u need a chat or anything just drop me a line - jesqua@hotmail.com kk jess

HI - I'm 5 days out from my operation - its happening 14th Jan. I've lost about 12 lbs (5.5 kg) in the first week and now i'm stagnant! i've become obsessed with weighing myself every day! I have had a few slip ups but never more than about 100 calories ( i know thats still bad) i just am so worried i'm not going to lose any more before the operation and i need to lose at least another 8lbs( 4 kg) I'm walking, being VERY active with my housework.. what am i doing wrong? so depressed about this.:eek:

EEEEEEEEEEEEK i broke tonight i had a mouthful of steak (bbq grilled) and a mouthful of tomato Pasta (home made) but i think that added enought to bust my cal limit today.. eeek i've been going so well.. disappointed, and cranky at me. x

okay i'm on day 7, i've lost 6.1 kg with this Optifast thing! about 5 more and i think the doc will be happy for surgery on MONDAY! EEK i haven't really really struggled but today i WANT TO EAT.. but i won't.. i won't i wont.. wanna know something else... FitDay - Free Weight Loss and Diet Journal is addictive... and i did my housework wearing my pedometer today, walked over 5 km and burned 570 calories... how cool is that... peace out.. *lol* xoxox

so... its like day 4... the scales say i've lost 2.7 kg as of this morning.. is that even possible> i don't think so!! but i like the numbers!!! bring on rockhamton, dr russell, and a lap baned.. 14 01

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eek 155 how's that for a big number... its gross isn't it

chrissy.. i'm in biloela central queensland, about and hour and ahalf from rockhampton (the beef[y] capital of austraila) Dr Andrew Russell is performing my surgery on 14 -01 - 2008 I'm nervous as hell, but i've told lots of ppl so i can't chicken out, cause i know i would have otherwise....

chrissy... go you good thing... queenslander here... mines happening soon too... good luck

Thanks For That... I Think I Might Go Snack On Some Veg Right Now... You're A Champion! Really Aplpreciate The Support

i'm in Queensland Australia - is 7.21 pm thursday..

Okay so i'm new, and i'm shaking even typing this... my name's jess.. i get my band done on 14 jan 2008. I am so scared and excited and weirded out... I've done all the pre stuff.. and i'm on optifast at the moment ( i'm struggling - but thats cause my support network is disappeared for the holidays) Is it normal to feel like this. even with the lap band it seems like too much to lose.. like i've done this too late... god that sounds depressing sorry.... anyways, hints or tips would be greatly appreciated.. much love j:eek:

i think including the mater hospital, surgeon and anaesthetic its looking at about $11800 before medicare rebates.. eeek 14 days to go