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I currently have 7 CCs. the most Ive had was i think 8.5 or 9 and that was after I had my second child, even then I wasnt loosing much. When I started all of this I had asked about the CCs and control I was told that they can fill it to the point where I couldnt event hold liquids if I wanted to, of course they were being sarcastic. Truth told I have thought about it

Hello everyone, I wanted to reach out to others who have been where I am mentally or are where I am. A bit of a history on my story I had surgery in May of 2010 and did great the first few months. Had many fills there after and about 2 yrs after surgery had to get almost 100% unfilled for I was pregnant and wasnt gaining any weight. after the baby roughly 6 months I went in for an adjustment. 2 years after that had 5 CC taken out as I was once again preg. bringing us to the present. I have had fills since my last child was born, but truth is I havent really felt any restriction or gotten that stuck feeling in quite some time, not that I like that feeling. I am trying to keep positive, but when I dont see numbers dropping on the scale i feel down and depressed. Like a total failure Today I have noticed that if I gently push down on the top of my stomach above the bigger scar ( the center) I feel a tenderness almost sore feeling. Not sure what to think of it. I have been thinking of maybe trying to get a diff surg but not sure if the Ins will cover it. I am so lost to be honest and just get even more depressed when one of my kids ask me why I have a big belly or when one of their friends ask me why I am fat. I have other health issues such as glucose intolerance, not a diabetic in any way, as well as have had some thyroid ussues, Since my surgery I had my gall bladder removed about a year post op lap band. I have also had a few stomach issues At this point Im wondering if I event made the right choice as Im not loosing weight and am more and more discouraged. Can anyone give any advice?