sbrainwater

Lol it's nice to hear from a former server who understands the pain. Thanks to everyone who has replied! You guys are great. The only problem is my employer would want me to give notice because servers can't just ask for that much time off unless I was giving birth. Asking off for six week would be effectively quitting. I know they would give me the job back if they needed a server, but I'm guess I'm just super scared to be jobless. PLUS the only way I can afford this is to go to Mexico. And I have concerns about that too. I will keep researching and praying and I will figure it out. But I would love more responses and advice!

I'm scared I will be in so much pain that I won't be able to work and I will drown in student loan debt and poverty.

MyLastCigarette app is the best. I smoked for 15 years and I gave been a non-smoker for 1 year, 69 days, 16 hours, and 10 minutes. I used the nicotine patch and the My Last Cigarette app. The app helped the most. Here's what it tells you I have spent over $30,000 on cigs in my 30ish years on earth. Since I quit, I saved over $2,600. Plus a bunch of health related stuff. For example, I have added 35 days to my life. Over 4 million people have died of smoking related causes since I quit. Plus there's a nasty pic (usually cancer related) and a daily message. It tells you how many cigs you haven't smoked, 8,693 in my case. I still miss smoking but I can look at the app and see how far I've come. When I first quit I would look at the app every day, multiple times. Now I just look at it every now and then. For me the e-cigs were too close to real cigs. I kept cheating. Once I started the patch and the app, that was it. I haven't cheated once! It was/is an addiction for me. But I knew if I smoked on the patch I could/would have a heart attack or a stroke. If you get the app, be sure and write down your quit date, costs, and habits so if you get a new smart phone you can input the same data. I learned that the hard way. GOOD LUCK to you and everyone quitting out there.