RaptorWitch

Pending where you are in Apex I'm not far away. I'm in Fuquay Varina

You look fantastic!!
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ONE DAY AT A TIME!! You're going to go exactly where you want, you got this, you're in control
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10 months post op and loving my new life!

10 months post op and loving my new life!

10 months post op and loving my new life!

@@RaptorWitch I'm originally from Sanford, aka 40 minutes south of Raleigh hahaha

So excited guess who may get to go home today.......this lady right here. Going home the day after surgery. So excited!

OMG, that's like a magical transformation-very inspiring. You look so great! Thanks for posting.

Looks like a lot of recent NC people

3 months 11 days. Feel better now than I did a month ago. food seems to be getting easier to hold down. The importance of chewing can not be overlooked. Eating slowly is extremely important. The more I chew the better I hold things down. So now I can eat meat again! The only things I have issue with now is things high in fat or scrambled eggs. Over easy eggs and soft boiled go down just fine.
HW 304 CW 232. 72 pounds down. 86 pounds to go.
Had to quit walking for a bit. But after orthotics I can now start walking again. Walked 2 miles today for the first time is almost 3 weeks. It's a lot warmer now outside than it was 3 weeks ago lol. Sweated my booty off............I hope! My 16's are now loose on me. I'll have to get new paints/capris soon. Kinda putting it off. I've got fat girl syndrome again. My bra size has gone from a 42/44 G to a 38G. But lately no matter how loose my clothes get or what size bra I'm in now I am in fat girl mode. I look in the mirror and see fat face. Fat butt. Fat gut. Fat legs. You get the idea. The important thing is I know it's in my head. While I'm not thin I'm not as fat as I was. I know mentally I'm making myself bigger than I was before the journey. Regardless I keep seeing it. I am just going to keep telling myself you can't argue that the clothes are getting bigger ergo you must be getting smaller. I won't give up. I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing and I refuse to allow my mind to sabotage my body. It almost feels as though I'm waging war on myself. My new self must fight my old self and not allow self sabotage to win out. Just one more speed bump along this journey to over come. They said the journey would not be easy. They were NOT joking. Allowing myself to feel like a failure is not allowable. If I was a failure I would not be losing weight. I would not have more energy. My clothes wouldn't be getting looser. The fat girl inside me will not win this game.
See you next month. Just remember take it one battle at a time.

So I'm 4 days from surgery and am in a who gives a shit mood. It started last night. No one around us knows that my husband had his RNY on November 9th (he's down almost 70 pounds I'm so proud of him) and I'm scheduled for mine on February 1st. We went out for our evening 1 mile walk last night. While walking we ran into a neighbor. First thing out of his mouth was "OMG John you've lost so much weight. You look so great. Every time I see you look better and younger. Great job with the walking". Then he turns to me and says (So what about you? What happened? Uh ah uh I mean you look great too. Keep working on it.). I was so PISSED. You know how you're suppose to think before speaking. Kinda forgot to. My response "F$&KYOUVERYMUCH". I turned and walked away. But every since I've been depressed. Don't get me wrong. I'm not upset at my husband. In fact I'm so very proud of him. He inspires me. I'm upset at the ass last night and upset over the perception. Mostly because it just hit me that that's the way everyone who knows us has been looking at us. I know I'm starting my journey and it won't be long before I start to transform it just hurts to know that all of your friends and neighbors have been looking at you like a failure. Done with my rant today.

Today was the first day of my journey. I started the pre surgery diet. This is the diet the doctor prescribed:
2 - 3 Protein shakes Daily - 60grams of liquid Protein per day.
Eat High Protein
* Baked/Grilled
** chicken
** Turkey
** lean meat
** Fish
* Fresh or steamed vegetables
* Fresh fruit
NO Carbohydrates!!!!
I did pretty good. I'm using my fitness pal to record everything I eat or drink. I'm over in Proteins but under in everything else. I've even met my Fitbit goal! Been a little crabby but trying not to aggravate my support system lol. My husband is my support system and he had his surgery on November 9th of last year. It's just he and I in the house. The children are all grown and gone. I'm so lucky to only have to worry about foods for the two of us, it makes it much easier than it could have been.
I've been trying to keep myself busy to distract from things. Consequently today is the day I started to learn how to use a sewing machine. I'm hoping if I keep myself busy then it will be easier.
I'm really looking forward to a new life but I'm also very very nervous. Self doubt, worry over the surgery, fear of failure just a few of the things I'm feeling. Tomorrow is a new day. Here's to hoping it goes well.
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I just noticed that I never added my starting weight. Heaviest weight was 304diet starting weight is 297.8

1 month 3 days. Spent the last 2 weeks on a doctor mandated rest. Evidently I've been up doing to much. ARGH. Today I get to start walking again. I'm suppose to only walk a quarter mile. But I'm feeling really well and am finally able to take in soft foods. My gas is virtually gone and the xiphoid process bruising is healed. My energy is starting to come back as well. I'm seriously thinking about walking 1/4 mile in the am, resting, then trying a 1/4 mile this afternoon. We shall see.
My swelling is actually starting to go down. My pants are getting looser and my shirts are looser as well. I just wish I could see a bit a difference. But it's coming I'm sure.

I enjoyed reading what you've had to say. Hope you're doing well, and you come back and let us know how things are going! I'm still waiting on insurance approval, so I find myself reading all I can here!

Wishing you the best! My doctor requires for me to be on the broth, Jello and veggies for 2 weeks. I can have 6 Protein shakes a day. My surgery date is 2/12.
I'm a bit jealous of your pre-op diet!
Please keep us posted post-op!

So it's been about 7 hours since my last post and I just wanted to quickly post an update. I'm in full on B!&ch mode. Evidently 48 hours with only broth, Water, Jello, Popsicles, and shakes puts me in a really foul humor. So thankful I only had to do this for 2 days. But, I gotta tell ya I feel so sorry for my poor husband. I've tried to apologize for being in an angry mood but even that comes out sounding mad. Dude must be a saint to tolerate me.

So it's the day before surgery. Lean and green diet had made me constipated. So last night I took a little MOM. Needless to say I'm not anymore. Day 2 of straight liquids and I'm peeing twice as much as the norm and I'm not blocked anymore. Between the 2 pretty sure I'm going to lose all my Water weight tonight lol. Emotions are a little more under control. Will maybe lol. Got my bag packed for the hospital. Packed Chapstick, toothbrush, toothpaste, mouthguard, brush, pony holder, brush, phone and iPad chargers, and deodorant. Think I've got everything. I've stripped off my nail polish from my hands and toes. I think I'm ready. At least packing wise. Emotions and anxieties are another thing lol.

Hang in there.Congratulations on your upcoming surgery.You are so honest and straightforward And I love it.
People say dumb ass** they just can't give a compliment and keep it moving...no filter ,no manners.
Don't you worry in 4 month you will be in a nice zone.You will lose weight and the comments will come.Some will still be dumb as well.It is great that you and your husband is doing WLS.Your time will come.
Keep me posted.You will be just fine.Say goodbye to your present because the future is a whole new story.

About an hour from FV sadly

I'm not really sure. I'm rather new to the forum.

That's our goal. We have no family here so we have to see if we can find someone to come be a "babysitter" if not the we will have to go separate.

My mistake; sorry. Posts can be misleading sometimes. It was right after a reply that it appeared to be related to.

Not yet. The hospital I'm having surgery at has 2 different support groups but I haven't been to any of them yet. One of them is during the day so I doubt I'll make it to any of those but I am going to try to make the evening ones.

Originally Elizabethtown KY. Now Fuquay Varina NC