jengilligan

beau within thank you so much for your support! I think my fiance feels as lost as I am, and he has never had to deal with anything like this before! He did tell me the other day that he misses the old jen! And that made me feel horrible! It's like I don't know how to be happy anymore!!! What could I do to make myself happy again? And this has been going on since at least Feb. I had the surgery in November!! I think its time to call my surgeon before something really bad happens and I lose EVERYTHING!!! thank you again for our wonderful words of wisdom! And BTW we have a couples therapy session tomorrow!!!

I am 7 months post op of a gastric sleeve, and I don't know what's going on with me emotionally! I am diagnosdrd with bipolar 2, and I have never felt this BSD in my whole entire life!!! I can not think straight, my family is falling apart and I have a fiancé who " doesn't know how to handle highly emotional people" as he told me about 3 weeks sgo. And we have been together 11 years this September,!!! I don't know what to do!! my psych has been trying different antidepressants and nothing has workedvthur far!!! My fiance is ready to take our child and leave, and I can't even get him to talk to me when I need him most!!! I have never felt so alone in m entire 40yrs in this world_!! It feels like he doesn't love me anymore, and is just going thru the motions!! I am questioning why I am even alive and it feels like NOONE cares!!! This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through, and I have no support from ANYONE!!! I feel like just ending it all so I can finally have some piece of mind!!! I think that's not feesable, but the thoughts are still racing thru my head everyday, day in and out!! I've lost 120 lbs and still feel totally unattractive especially to the person I am in love with!! he is/or at least was my soul mate!!! I have never felt so unwanted by some one that I am so in love with!! But I think he is totally falling out of love with me! And it scares me to death!! I can not picture my life without him in it!! Has anyone been blue and/or depressed since having surgery?? I honestly 66,t,don't know what to do about it .,,!! I feel lost and oh so alone!!! I'm scared that I an going to do about it!??????

Hi, my name is Jennifer Gilligan and I had my gastric sleeve back on November 14, 2014. I have had no complication to date and have lost a total of 120lbs to date!!! My goal weight is 135, so I have about 11 more pounds to lose! When I am at my goal weight for 6 months my insurance said they will pay for me to have the excess slin roved!! I can not wait for that to happen!!! I started my journey last Feb at a whopping 275 lbs at 5'4", I was totally round! It hard getting use to my new body!! The only problem I am having is losing my hair, even though I am talking 10,000 micrograms of Biotin everyday along with my vitamins!!! I use to have . Beautiful thick hair that people would die for, now I look like I'm going thru chemo!!! Anyway, if anyone needs to talk Im a good listener, just message me!!!