ToniMarie05

My surgery is in less then a week and I could not be on more of an emotional Rollercoaster. I go from excited to scared to death. What if I don't like who I become? What if my friends or family no longer love me for me? I have always been accepted for who I am no matter what weight I was. What happens if I'm more sad after the surgery then before?

So as I lay here at 1 am thinking about what is about to be done to my body. I know it's normal to feel nervous. But i kinda feel bad for the reasons I am feeling nervous. It's kinda petty really. I know the whole "I'm doing it to get healthy" speal but deep down I just want to feel like a normal person who isn't the heaviest person in the room. I don't want to be the fat funny friend that is always single. The everyone thinks I'm gay because I have never had a boyfriend. ( I'm not hating on gay people please don't take it like I am) does anyone else feel bad for thinking this way? I can't be the only one.

So as I lay here at 1 am thinking about what is about to be done to my body. I know it's normal to feel nervous. But i kinda feel bad for the reasons I am feeling nervous. It's kinda petty really. I know the whole "I'm doing it to get healthy" speal but deep down I just want to feel like a normal person who isn't the heaviest person in the room. I don't want to be the fat funny friend that is always single. The everyone thinks I'm gay because I have never had a boyfriend. ( I'm not hating on gay people please don't take it like I am) does anyone else feel bad for thinking this way? I can't be the only one.

So as I lay here at 1 am thinking about what is about to be done to my body. I know it's normal to feel nervous. But i kinda feel bad for the reasons I am feeling nervous. It's kinda petty really. I know the whole "I'm doing it to get healthy" speal but deep down I just want to feel like a normal person who isn't the heaviest person in the room. I don't want to be the fat funny friend that is always single. The everyone thinks I'm gay because I have never had a boyfriend. ( I'm not hating on gay people please don't take it like I am) does anyone else feel bad for thinking this way? I can't be the only one.

So as I lay here at 1 am thinking about what is about to be done to my body. I know it's normal to feel nervous. But i kinda feel bad for the reasons I am feeling nervous. It's kinda petty really. I know the whole "I'm doing it to get healthy" speal but deep down I just want to feel like a normal person who isn't the heaviest person in the room. I don't want to be the fat funny friend that is always single. The everyone thinks I'm gay because I have never had a boyfriend. ( I'm not hating on gay people please don't take it like I am) does anyone else feel bad for thinking this way? I can't be the only one.

I will be having surgery on July 16, 2015.... I'm very scared but excited all at the same time... It's always the unknown that's scary ...