Calm your nerves. It will be ok. Maintain a positive attitude. I had Rny 2 years ago. Lost 100lbs. Before surgery I had my hair done and manicure/pedi. After surgery I had very little pain. I got up every morning in hospital. When I didn't feel like it. Bathed at sink. Put on my perfume and lotion. I stayed positive. I got up and walked when they wanted me too. Stay positive and fear is normal. When I woke up from surgery nurse was right there to see if I needed anything for pain. Be encouraged!! It will be worth it. I have no regrets.