alaskanbliss

I am 18 days post-op today. I have ( so far) lost a total of 15.5 pounds since my surgery, and a total of 22.9 since I began the pre-op liquid die be surgery ( 28 days). For whatever reason ( call me crazy) I feel REALLY disappointed in these numbers. Back in 2012, I went on the Medifast 5&1 plan and lost 32.5 pounds in my first 30 days. At this rate, I am not on track to meet ( much less exceed) those numbers from 2012. I cannot seem to physically grasp how that is possible as I have not consumed more than 300 calories in 28 days, and I've "only" lost 22 pounds. I would think someone my size ( starting weight pre-op diet was 299 at 5'8) would lose 35-40 pounds in the first 30 days post-op...particularly given my struggles with intake and swelling that has caused me to be able to consume so little. The odd thing is, although I sit at 5'8 and 276 pounds, I am wearing a size 16 slacks and an XL top. The day I left for surgery I was in size 22 jeans and a 2x top. So, in those 28 total days I've lost 6 pants sizes ( three technical since pants are sized every two numbers) and 3 shirt sizes. I usually would have to be well below 250 to be able to get into a size 16, and an XL top. I've also lost 19.5 inches off my body as a whole in these 28 days. I guess I just feel disappointed b/c I will be heading to see my primary care doc for my first set of blood draws in about 3 weeks, and I desperately wanted to just have this CRAZY impressive number to whoo her socks off-as she did not support me having WLS ( I had mine in MX due to insurance refusing all bariatric coverage). While I can see how much smaller I am...that is not something she is really going to notice. My recover has been HELL-ish...far harder than I expected and nearly every non life threatening complication they say is a possibility has happened to me. I drove in t work this morning and sobbed as I asked myself "was 20 freaking pounds worth all this hell?" I know I the weight will come off, I get that. I guess I am scared b/c my body always seems to have this set point that I can never get below ( for me it's about 240-245) and I'm already seeing the signs of my body rebelling against the weight loss. But, scientifically speaking, I do not understand how on 300 calories per day I can be losing so "little". According to my BMR, with this intake my loss should be b/t 1.5-2 pounds per DAY. Can anyone shed any light? Is this normal? Is it common with VSG for the inches to fly off but for the scale not to move? Anything you can recommend I do to get the actual scale moving a bit more quickly? I appreciate the insight and support.

I guess the logical scientific number person in me still fails to see how it makes any sense. Especially since I lost SO much more and faster eating 3 times the calories I do now. I will search the forums and see what I can find...but, I sure hope that I didn't pay all this money and risk my life and deal with all these horrible complications and never being able to enjoy food again to lose 2 pounds per week. That thought alone makes me just want to sob.