Running2theSleeve

Hello! My name is Rhonda and I am in the first stages of seeking a new way of life. I have my first doctor's appointment July 6 and I am so looking forward to getting closer to getting sleeved! I have BCBS of IL (ID# XOF) and was told by BCBS my surgery is approved contingent upon a medical review. My BMI is at a 47 however, I don't have diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, sleep apnea, etc., all the illness that have been associated with being over weight. What are they looking for to grant approval? Will they approve my surgery? I am so scared they may deny it! Then what will I do? I've always dealt with my weight fluctuating, yo-yo dieting and finally, recently, just throwing in the towel to fat defeat. After the birth of my third ( and last) child back in 2007, I never could really get the weight off for good. This brings me to my concerns in my present day. The girls are more active and I can't keep up due to my weight. I even feel bad for making excuses and having my son be the go to person for all physical activities. I am either tired.... really I'm embarrassed. I'm not really nervous about the surgery but I am afraid of losing my comforters - Chips and liquid calories from soda to nightly glasses of wine. I am ready to make the change and I realize it starts now, not the day after surgery. Fingers crossed!

I have so many hidden secrets. In public I can be fierce but behind close doors I beat myself up!

I have not been on my first visit as it's not scheduled until July 6. However, I really am concerned about the "juices" leaking. Is there a test they can do to see if juices are leaking? I have BCBS of IL but I will pay out of pocket for a test like this. I have 3 children and a GREAT Job, plus my own business. I am willing to pay anything to ensure I will be here for my kids.

Thanks for the responses! I really appreciate it! Sometimes family think they are being supportive but it's not what you need. Thank God for forums like this!

Good luck with your surgery! I have my first doctor's visit on July 6th and I wish I was where you are in the 'journey'. After researching the surgery and reading blogs, I realize even more that this will be a total life changer. I am ready for it! I am sick and tired of being in my current state. Stay focused, be honest with yourself and I'm sure you will succeed.