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I had WLS in July 2015, gastric sleeve. Shortly before my surgery, it came to my attention that I had an overeating disorder. I went through with the surgery and lost 100lbs. I have regained 60lbs. I feel like a big, fat failure. I feel stuck inside of a broken mind. For the first 20 months after surgery, I was killin' it! Went to the gym 3-4 times a week, got a trainer, was cooking and eating well, monitored my intake of carbs and fats. I was so determined not to fail. But sometimes your mind is stronger than your will and desire to achieve something else. It was recommended to me to keep a notepad. I did this a few weeks prior to surgery and a few post-op. I was rereading my pre-op posts and I wrote, "I feel ready for this. I'm excited. But I can't help but feel like I'll eventually sabotage myself" My mind is broken and I don't know how to fix it. Now, I would consider myself about 80% suicidal. I'd rather be dead than be fat because my mind is broken. I feel so literally trapped in my body that I'd rather die than be fat for one more goddamn day. If I tell anyone this, I'm scared they're going to admit me. I don't want to end my life but I'm so sad and tired of hating myself that I don't know how else to get out. I don't understand how people love me, how my boyfriend says I look good. I feel like a giant, fat, slob who is so broken mentally that I am barely holding it together. Someone help me, please.

I had WLS in July 2015, gastric sleeve. Shortly before my surgery, it came to my attention that I had an overeating disorder. I went through with the surgery and lost 100lbs. I have regained 60lbs. I feel like a big, fat failure. I feel stuck inside of a broken mind. For the first 20 months after surgery, I was killin' it! Went to the gym 3-4 times a week, got a trainer, was cooking and eating well, monitored my intake of carbs and fats. I was so determined not to fail. But sometimes your mind is stronger than your will and desire to achieve something else. It was recommended to me to keep a notepad. I did this a few weeks prior to surgery and a few post-op. I was rereading my pre-op posts and I wrote, "I feel ready for this. I'm excited. But I can't help but feel like I'll eventually sabotage myself" My mind is broken and I don't know how to fix it. Now, I would consider myself about 80% suicidal. I'd rather be dead than be fat because my mind is broken. I feel so literally trapped in my body that I'd rather die than be fat for one more goddamn day. If I tell anyone this, I'm scared they're going to admit me. I don't want to end my life but I'm so sad and tired of hating myself that I don't know how else to get out. I don't understand how people love me, how my boyfriend says I look good. I feel like a giant, fat, slob who is so broken mentally that I am barely holding it together. Someone help me, please.

I'm 25yo and 3.5 months out. The moment I hit 3 months, it's been falling it in clumps in the shower. I clean out my brush twice a day. I'm freaking out! I have definitely noticed a thinning in my hair. I'm taking biotin and using biotin shampoo and Rogain like the Durham told me too but OMG, I am losing A LOT of hair.

Oikos Triple Zero Greek Yogurt is a great choice. It's zero added sugar, zero fat, and zero artificial sweeteners.. THANK YOU!

pizza. Don't bring pizza around me. I'll hurt ya. It's my favorite, FAVORITE food. I'm 15dsys post op and 24lbs down but God I love pizza.

What brands/types of yogurt are people buying for this stage? All the yogurt I look at has so much sugar in it! Any suggestions?

I am 25 years old and had my surgery last week on July 30th, 2015. I understand what you mean about social situations. In my family, food brings us together. We all enjoy it and enjoy each other's company. For me, I took a step back from being a social foodie. I'm lucky to have very few, select friends who are extremely supportive. Who understand that trips to restaurants can't be "our thing" anymore. My mom is a rockstar and my brother and sister are slowly coming around to not having a restaurant be a meeting place. That's been my biggest struggle. Just remember that if you want this and want to be healthier, missing then weekly dinner/drinks night is worth it.

I've had a CPAP since 2008. It has totally improved my sleeping and my life. I can live without it! I had sleeve surgery last week and the doctors are saying I, eventually, will no longer need it. I can't imagine not needing it!!

Hi everyone, I am officially post op! I can't believe it! I'm having an easier time with this than I anticipated. The day after surgery was tough, and the second night a little harder because of sleep and pain starting to seep in but I got home earlier this afternoon and am feeling really good! So excited for my new life

I absolutely love the entire office. I have found their protocol and program to far surpass hang I have heard of. Do you plan on attending support group I'm June Dr. Kaul is also my surgeon! My date is July 30th. Any advice for me? I'm excited but a little nervous. The thing that makes me nervous the most is living alone and having no one to keep my accountable. It's a lot of pressure to put on yourself.

Hi everyone, I just got my surgery date today. July 30, 2015. I'm 25 and psyched but a little nervous, naturally. I'm trying to plan.. What is one thing you wish you knew before or after the surgery? Looking forward to you replies! -D

That was so helpful! Thank you! Good to know that I'll be full of Fluid after surgery so I don't freak. Thank you!!

I can't say, I'm scheduled for July 30th

I am brand new, joined about two minutes ago... I haven't had the procedure yet but I'm schedule for July 30 2015. WOW!