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@@KristenLe haha yeah kinda. now i gotta fight the "too thin" demons lol. but we'll all be ok i think. truly. i gotta stop looking at charts on the internet.

the dumps. like immediately after. so needless to say i don't eat any sugar at all.

well i will tell you when you see someone like say scarlett johanson on the screen and you think hey she looks kinda juicy. she's actually 5'2 and like 125lbs. so yeah i hear ya. im at a point now where i'm being told im too thin and i have no point of reference to know whether the people are right or not so ive had a hard time lately with my body and "too skinny"/"too fat" type issues. so i hear ya on this big time.

this came up on my facebook as a flashback from 2 years ago (the pic on the right). the caption read "im thinking i look kinda skinnyish today" ha. little did i know i didn't but anyways. the right one is from today in correct sized pants lol. size 8 and i do look skinny ish

God. You are super sexy. Screw these trolls!

Thanks beautiful ladies. It did hurt my feelings but fuck these people. Ur right

i forgot to post this week cuz someone hurt my feelings and told me i looked sickly yesterday and i got all butt hurt and was crying all night. see "surgery day" for details. anyways here's the latest. 148lbs.

anywho on a more productive note. ive stopped working out. i was stalled at 150 for three weeks. stopped working out last week. kept eating keto and adding more fat and this week i've lost 2lbs so maybe my body just needed a break or needed more fat. all a process of trial and error so this has been the result. not going to work out till maybe next week.

I literally broke down in tears yesterday cuz so many people at work told me I was too skinny. One girl even said I look sickly. Sickly!! I'm 148lbs at 5'3. That's not even close to skinny. I have no idea cuz i have "fat brain" like Karen said. I had to call my dad over just to tell me if I looked sick or not. [emoji24][emoji24][emoji24]

@@jaxmom @Rose1up! @@KristenLe thanks guys. yesterday was a tough day. i think one of the things i find more than anything is that i don't have a person to bounce this off of that knows the answer. what i mean is i have no fucking idea if im small or fat or medium or whatever cuz i have "fat brain" i've never been under 152 in my entire adult life. i don't know if i'm too skinny now or not! all i can go by is BMI or the mirror or if im the size i want or if my pooch is still there or whatever. yesterday i actually had to call my dad over cuz i knew he would tell me the truth bout how i looked i asked my sister, my two best friends and two of my exes (that are friends). smh. one person this week actually told me i looked SICKLY. yes SICKLY. and i think it's cuz i was wearing size 14 pants that are like 3 sizes too big but shit clothes are expensive! but i guess i won't b wearing those again. @@jaxmom my name is because of the dogs. i have an organization and am a big advocate for pit bulls.

I'm just gonna keep posting these until they become funny. Right now they are just annoying. I guess in these people's defense they did know me when I was 80 pounds heavier maybe that's why it seems so shocking to them. Do people not realize this could hurt someone's feelings?? Like I work in a place with 2000 people so I literally hear this like 20x a day. I started to feel like a freak today. I had my dad come over to ask him if I looked too thin. I cried today. This transition isn't as easy as people think. [emoji20][emoji20]

Well even though I've been going through a break up probably drinking more than I should I have been on point with my diet even though I haven't worked out today a monumentous occasion has taken place… In the 140s!!! Woooo! Think I'm shooting for 135 now. Glad to see I can stay on point with my food and still keep losing even if I'm being lazy with the workouts

@@brittanylau same exact thing happened to me. 1. wasn't losing 2. felt like surgery was a mistake 3. was sick daily but you just keep doing the right thing and the weight will come off. you seem to be in the dreaded 3 week stall. don't give up. it will work. just keep going! and make sure you are eating ENOUGH. this was a big issue for me. i added more fat and it's been better for me even at this tail end of my journey.

@@beauty and the beast i actually don't do any refined sugar at all. i will have fruit or stevia/splenda but that's it. i tried some ice cream early on and i got serious dumps so that pretty much took care of it for me.

@@hpa omg right? like i knew i was overweight but i never saw myself as "THAT fat" and then i'd get caught in the background of a photo and be like OMG. but now i kinda have the same problem. I don't see myself as NOT fat yet. so i feel basically the same (fat) unless i see myself in a mirror or a photo. smh. #mindissues

@Rose1up! looking great mama!!!!! @@jaxmom thanks. boys are dumb. i seem to be choosing the same narcissistic asshole now that i'm skinny just as i did when i was fat lol. yah. im kinda giving my body a break i guess tho im still eating well so im still at 150 but i know if i just push a little this week i could be in the 140's and that would be amazing so imma try to get going tonight on the first work out. just so tired physically and emotionally.

Sigh. I feel like I'm really slowing down. Granted I'm going through a break up but that's really no excuse. I only worked out like two times this week and even though I'm eating right and my weight is still 150 I feel like I'm slowing down and I need to re-motivate to get these last 10 to 15 pounds off.

@@numeby2017 she's jealous that's all

@@jersey0601 i think we appreciate it more and maybe regret not doing it sooner.

weird opposite problem. so as ya'll know. when you start losing you start buying new clothes and eventually you get to the point where you're like wtf man how much more on the clothes?? so anyways i bought this jacked in a junior medium thinking if it's small then good cuz then it'll fit me when i'm at ultimate goal whatever that is so here i am wearing this tight ass junior medium blazer which may or may not fit me at my goal weight LOL. #wardrobeissues

@@naturegirl yeah it is really weird. i still see fat "parts" when i look at myself. it's a weird mental transition for sure.

Man. sometimes you see a before photo and you think to yourself, "how did i ever let it get to that point?" motivates me to get these last 10-20lbs off. #transformationtuesday

all my shoes are too big now. especially my heels which is freaking annoying cuz those are what i wear for work everyday now that i can wear them without pain. ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so all new wardrobe i expected but all new shoes i did not! END RANT

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