I'm scared. I was so proud of my initial decision to have WLS . I went to a seminar and that was it, I had made up my mind. I have been through so many doctors appointments and stayed positive and am nearing my vsg surgery, that will be scheduled sometime in July. All of a sudden I'm getting cold feet. For some reason I'm feeling angry with myself for not having the willpower to just stop overeating and hit the gym!!!!!! I'm angry that I have to resort to butchering my insides to prevent me from stuffing my mouth! I think I'm in denial, seriously. I weigh 270. That's wayyyy to much for my height of 5' 3". I know that. Maybe I'm guilty since the vsg surgery historically was performed for seriously ill patients , ie those with cancer or bad ulcers, and here I am someone who can't stop eating. I guess it's hard to admit I have a problem and haven't been able to solve it on my own. Perhaps I should be grateful that there are skilled surgeons that perform these surgeries to help people like me. I'm still going through with it, but wondering if anyone has felt like me out there? Ps for all of you brave individuals that have gone through the surgery, I give you so much credit, thank you all for sharing your experiences. They provide priceless information. So again, just wondering if anyone has wigged out before the actual surgery date??? Thank you.
