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I can offer no 'advice' as I'm not familiar with the processes for your country...
What I will so tho, is this -
Don't give up...
If this is truly the course of action that you need to take, don't give up...
Again, I've no suggestions as to what your next step(s) should, or even could, be...
But the second you lose hope is the second that this whole thing becomes too much...
I genuinely wish you nothing but the best,,
I hope that thru here, or elsewhere, you come across some information that can assist you in getting where you need to be..
As always, please keep us updated as to where things are at for you...
And take care...