VancouverGirl72

I posted this on another thread I had started...but then I realized that was in a preop forum. I've graduated to post op now! I had my surgery on June 11 in Toronto (I live in Vancouver). The surgery went really well...the trip home was a nightmare. Nausea, shoulder pain...gross. But ok so then I got home and figured stuff out. I'm now a month post op, and I've lost 36lbs (that includes 20 lbs pre op). I feel good. My incisions are completely healed. I am relieved that |I can start eating non-pureed or soft foods again I don't feel hungry unless I go for more than 4 hrs without eating. I'm surprised how good I feel. I won't say it's easy, but it's not nearly as miserable as I thought. I'm an emotional eater, and sadly we've had a death in the family (my 10 yr old son's dad died the week before my surgery). It was a real test of my resolve. But I powered through it, and continue to do it. My little man is struggling, but I'm making a conscious effort to not use food as a source of comfort. It's extraordinarily hard. I've started to use the Fitness Pal app, which has really assisted me in keeping on track w/ what exactly is going into my body. I've never ever paid that much attention before, and I make decisions now based on my journalling and intake. It's quite amazing. So while the preop diet...hahaha omg it was awful and I hated it, it was finite (for me 3 weeks). I will probably never eat sprouts or mushrooms again. Now, it's going to be about volume control, carb intake control and exercise. I have a really really long way to go still, but I find that every time I see that my efforts are paying off, it makes me that much stronger and confident. People are starting to notice and comment, and that also helps. I hope that you're all doing well. I think that sharing here is helpful for each of us for different reasons. Mostly, to show that we are not alone. I am not alone. Neither are you. But I"m pretty sure bacon misses me.

I had my surgery on June 11 in Toronto (I live in Vancouver). The surgery went really well...the trip home was a nightmare. Nausea, shoulder pain...gross. But ok so then I got home and figured stuff out. I'm now a month post op, and I've lost 36lbs (that includes 20 lbs pre op). I feel good. My incisions are completely healed. I am relieved that |I can start eating non-pureed or soft foods again I don't feel hungry unless I go for more than 4 hrs without eating. I'm surprised how good I feel. I won't say it's easy, but it's not nearly as miserable as I thought. I'm an emotional eater, and sadly we've had a death in the family (my 10 yr old son's dad died the week before my surgery). It was a real test of my resolve. But I powered through it, and continue to do it. My little man is struggling, but I'm making a conscious effort to not use food as a source of comfort. It's extraordinarily hard. I've started to use the Fitness Pal app, which has really assisted me in keeping on track w/ what exactly is going into my body. I've never ever paid that much attention before, and I make decisions now based on my journalling and intake. It's quite amazing. So while the preop diet...hahaha omg it was awful and I hated it, it was finite (for me 3 weeks). I will probably never eat sprouts or mushrooms again. Now, it's going to be about volume control, carb intake control and exercise. I have a really really long way to go still, but I find that every time I see that my efforts are paying off, it makes me that much stronger and confident. People are starting to notice and comment, and that also helps. I hope that you're all doing well. I think that sharing here is helpful for each of us for different reasons. Mostly, to show that we are not alone. I am not alone. Neither are you.

Thanks! I'm on day four, and I'm so hungry. This is very difficult. If I didn't feel so hungry, it would be a little easier, I think. Fighting years of bad eating demons. Your profile alone is inspirational. You've lost so much weight, and you must feel amazing. Thank you for your words of encouragement.

Last Meal was from my favorite chinese food place. My fridge is full of low glycemic index vegetables. My pantry is full of the liver shakes. I guess I'm really doing this. I love reading the post op comments, about how much weight people have lost, and how well they are doing. It's so inspirational. I'm not used to relying on anyone to help with anything ever, but I think that with this, I'm going to have to really ask for help and support and be a total sponge for positivity. I have so much sympathy for my friends and family right now! They have no idea... Come to my party...maybe we can all suffer our way to success together?? ~M

May 21 I will start, what I'm calling, the "liver shakes". My surgery is June 11. That's 22 days of 3 shakes a day, plus 250 additional calories from low glycemic index vegetables...omg. Math and vegetables in the same sentence. What am I doing?? My fridge is completely stocked with vegetables. I'm ready. I know that the first week is hard, and will power through. But with 20 some years of crappy eating habits in my arsenal, what if it's just too hard and I cave. I don't want to believe that I will. I hate vegetables. I may never want to see arugula again I hate being fat more. Maybe those hated vegetables will be my liberators in the end. I might be excited. But don't tell anyone. ~M