Mrs.Jackson76

Hello my name is Mrs.Jackson76 and I had gastric sleeve in April 2013 and I am having the hardest time losing weight I feel sometimes like I made a mistake or was it even worth it I was 281 the day of surgery and I am 254 now don't get me wrong I could probably do a lot better but I really don't understand and I am so tired of going in to the dr. And she looks at me in disappointment. I dred going so I find myself wanting to starve myself before checkups so I feel better and she don't look at me like that.My journey has been dreadful I wonder sometimes if I got the wrong surgery or its probably just me.I tried Belviq and it was working for me and when I went to get a refill my insurance would not pay so what's a girl to do? I have never been this heavy but I took I'll 5 years ago and got diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and polymyositis and the first 2 years was dreadful and very painful barely able to get around by the third year it was getting better by the grace of God and my dr.s they had me on prednisone for most of those tears and this is the result now I am 38 and scared to death that I am failing at this completely can any one help me.