LongingToBThin

Hey all, have a concern. I never seem to to be able to eat anything until late in the evening. So I was wondering if using something such as boost--? for Breakfast and lunch would be ok, then eat small meal in evening. ?? It seems to fill me up, and packed with all the good vitamins/minerals. Give me your opinion!! Thanks kristi

Hi all, my name is Kristi, Im 29 from Texas. I was banded back in April, and I am soooo depressed right now. Infact, im past depressed. I dont want to bore any of you...but at this point, im sickened by the fact that I have gone through so much, and have lost so little. I am sad mostly due to the fact that there was a young woman who had the surgery 2 weeks before me, and she has lost 103 lbs, and yet, ive only lost a mere...oh my god. I just stopped typing to see how much I actually DID weigh, Im at 298!!!! under 300 lbs!!! Im crying again!!! This entire time I thought I hadnt lost, the battery in my scale has been down...and yet. I have been losing this entire time, just not as fast as the other woman. I have made poor choices. I dont eat hardly anything, I eat nothing infact, or I throw up. Ive GOT to get back on track, Ive got to eat healthy....I just need a buddy, obviously I cant do this alone, or Id be 100 lbs lighter too!!! I have to get backt o the basics. but its been so long I have forgotten what they all are. I have a terrible back. (2 herniated discs) this is the reasoning behind not exercising near the amount id like due to the pain with each step I take. I have literally laid on the couch or in the bed with a heating pad on my back, taking pain pills etc. BUT IM TIRED OF LIVING THAT LIFE. I have got to get healthy for myself, for my son. My baby boy deserves to have a happy, healthy mom. A mama who doesnt base her life on whether or not she has pain pills so she can make it through the day. Im tired of hurting when I wake up in the morning. Im tired of feeling 50 when Im not even 30. Please, help me, someone who has the time to take this journey with me. I have to get back on track. I have lost, but I have to start exercising, starting tomorrow...first thing in the morning. If I cant eat during the day, I must have a shake or something...I cant starve myself anymore. Or eat Ice cream, and starches simply because they go down easier. My band is perfectly adjusted...I just have to get back to basics...Ive been overweight my entire life, I dont want to live the rest of my life the same way.... Thanks for listening... Kristi NurseWiggins07@aol.com

Hey there! Thanks so much for the support. It felt great knowing there is someone out there who actually took the time to listen. Im not sure if I should just write down everything I eat/drink...you know, go back to journaling, or what. I feel because I dont eat much at one sitting, I am constantly grazing...you know, like a dang cow....just eating a little bit all day. This morning started out different, I did manage to drink a boost. It was the only thing that I had...Infact, I was given many cases of it. They have 240 cal. I figured if I have 2 during the day, some fruit or something for Snacks...and then a balanced meal Id be doing ok....? right???? BTW, I dont even remember how many cal. we need to take in. ugggh. I cant remember anything. I need to find my bible....the booklet my MD gave me when I was banded. For BIGBABY-Im in North Zulch, near Bryan/College Station area. lived there all my life. Id love to have a buddy I could meet up with. MUMof2Boys--The quote "Thin feels better than any food tastes". You are absolutely right, Ive just got to think that way again. Someteims I just say to hell with it, Im just always going to be fat....and yet I realize thats just the easy way out. GRRRRRRR. lol Want2bMeAgain-Thank you for the post, you are right, I have made it this far, I will continue to lose. I CAN do this. My husband is a wonderful man, but he too has put on a lot of weight since we married. He makes up his mind to lose, and then the next thing I know hes eating junk, or drinking cokes....??? Hes lost 60 lbs in the past, I KNOW that he can do it...its just will he??? Ive bought healthy stuff, which to me, seems to be more expensive...he will eat it up in one day, and it just gets under my skin. Ill buy a loaf of whole wheat bread for example...which would last me a month...he will eat it up in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So yes and no. He loves me, and wants me to be healthy, and happy, etc. But hes not doing this with me to make things easier. ?? Again, thanks for the support, BTW my email is NurseWiggins78@aol.com NOT nursewiggins07!!! hehehe. keep in touch! *HUGS* you all made my day, and I really mean that. Kristi :)

I had my surgery back in April, and ive lost 33 lbs. Its sooo depressing, especially because a gal who had her surgery 2 weeks before me has lost 103.5!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr looking for a buddy or 10!! lol