Califlower83

@@The Candidate omg I laughed so much reading your pranks! You're like a real Jim Halpert (the office) but sadly I don't work in an office so I'd have to think of some other way of revenge lol

Wow there are so many things I can't wait to stop doing once I lose the weight. Sweating- I currently sweat profusely like all the time! A co worker of mine thinks it's cute to come over and wipe my sweaty face all the time, I feel so embarrassed every time! Being able to bend- I have to either open my legs wide or put my leg out to ben over and get something because my belly is in the way. Chair scoping- When I go anywhere I have to scan the room and decide which chair I think will hold me, be comfortable, and I'll be able to get out of with ease. Shopping at a store- I pretty much do all my shopping online because going to the store is a hassle. Not only because it's hard to feel good in clothes when you don't like your body, but also the sweating when trying on clothes. sleeping anywhere- I snore like a wild animal and I hate falling asleep in front of people because they always need to mention it as if I don't know I snore!! I'm always trying to stay awake on planes and car rides to avoid the embarrassment! Handicap bathrooms- This one makes me feel like an a**hole! I always go to the big stall so I can have enough room to maneuver for cleaning (tmi but true) I'm glad to see so many people saying the sweating problem stopped!! There is hope!!

As a child myself and my 2 siblings were adopted by my aunt who was in her 20's and had 2 kids of her own. She worked hard to take care of us and was not always around because of that, growing up there were a lot of quick foods around to tide us over until she came home to cook. We would eat cup of noodles, TV dinners, microwave burritos, chips, soda, and Cookies. Because there was not a lot of supervision we ate as much as we wanted. Later when I should have been outside playing and being active I was inside cooking up horribly fattening concoctions like fried burritos, fresh french fries covered in a whole can of chili, home made doughnuts, chocolate sandwiches, or Breakfast ice cream ( ice cream with Cereal on top). I think my aunt wanted to prove that she was able to provide for us so there was a lot of overdoing it. On field trips we would have the biggest lunches, I would actually be embarrassed! 2 can sodas, chips, candy bars, hostess cakes, and a 6 inch sandwich from subway! My whole family would eat like this but I know now I ate my feelings from my mother leaving and abandonment. By the time I realized what eating like this was doing to me I was 250 in high school and from there tried just about everything to try getting the weight off. I don't really blame anyone though, nutrition wasn't something that was taught so nobody thought about it until much later down the road. Looking back it's no surprise I was overweight my whole life, I'm actually surprised I didn't gain more than I did!

I feel like i had a very strategic plan to who I would tell and when. I told one of my best friends who had gastric bypass about 8 years ago and she was excited for me and super supportive, then I told a few more friend and some co-workers. I wasn't going to tell my family because some of them have a tendency to support one minute then have nothing but negativity the next, and that's basically what happened. Comments like "Good for you but you know you can't reverse it", "you're going to have so much extra skin", or "you're never going to be able to eat what you want" and so on. With the exception of my boss I haven't told anyone else because my decision is made and I don't want to be upset with people not being supportive. Like @@rnsamantha I don't plan to lie about it once it's done I just don't need people getting in my head or on my nerves!

I'm going for my orientation on the 13th (finally!) Judging by others in my area with Kaiser I should be sleeved by summer and I'm hopeful for a July surgery date. Since I don't really know the entire process I'm prepared to wait longer, I just can't wait to finally go to the orientation and get the ball rolling! I feel like I've been waiting forever since I had to reschedule my first appointment in March and the class is only held once a month!

@@MrsSugarbabe Thanks for sharing! I guess I was thinking more along the lines of having to avoid social situations where food is involved like when I was trying different diets. I've done HCG and would have to pack my own food everywhere I went, so I'm at my nieces birthday party eating 4 oz of chicken from a tupperware in the corner! As much as that sucked I was willing to do it if I could reach my goals, but It wasn't an ideal way of life. I am glad the sleeve allows us to still enjoy some of the things that we loved before, as much as I need to get the weight of I don't want to totally give up any social life and normalcy that I'm used to forever. I will take your advice in a rib situation since I'm hoping to get sleeved this summer and there will be plenty of BBQ's!

@@LisaPunkinHead Thank you for the response, I was actually just about to post a question about what I should do in the meantime since my orientation to surgery class is not until next month. I'm amazed by how fast the process was for you, hopefully mine can be similar and I can be sleeved by summer like I was hoping!! I have been feeling anxious since I haven't been able to get much information from Kaiser in regards to the steps in the process, everyone(at Kaiser) keeps telling me to wait for the orientation but I feel like I should be doing something to speed up the process right now! And I am ignoring my PCP, she was trying to talk me out of it saying I should try the weight management classes for a year! I am moving forward anyway because I have tried so many programs over the past 10 years, and in 1 year I could be close to my goal weight and not worrying about my current pre-diabetic status or high cholesterol!

@@jadama22 Thank you for posting this, I am at the very beginning of the process and my mind wonders about this all the time! I was wondering if after surgery I would have to skip bbq's cause I wouldn't be able to eat ribs! It's great knowing so many of you were able to still have some of the things you used to, it makes me feel like I don't have to feel so panicked and I can stop having "food funerals". I know I'm going to have to change my relationship with food but knowing that I won't soon be eating my last piece of bacon soon is a relief!

@@MeAndTinyTina I guess I have started the process, but I'm not 100% on how it goes, I know my insurance covers WLS and I saw a primary care physician who said I would qualify because my bmi is 48, but she thinks I should wait a year! However she said she couldn't tell me what to do and scheduled me for the orientation which is next month. I have already done my lab work so I'm hoping after the orientation I get a referral and then move along the process. I am hoping to be sleeved by June/July I've been researching a lot and it seems like Kaiser in Northern Ca moves pretty quickly so hopefully that's the case with me! BTW your progress is inspiring! Way to go!! An just like you I can't wait to make up for lost time!!

For me I feel like my whole life has been straws breaking the camels back and me ignoring it or looking the other way. Well the first is being overweight my whole life! Having a kid point out that I had stretch marks in the 5th or 6th grade, being called the "fat April" in 8th grade when another girl named April started at the same school, getting my first drivers license and lying about being 190lbs (which to this I've never weighed, or changed), to having to describe myself as a BBW/"more to love" on dating sites almost as more of a disclaimer than a description of who I am. Next feeling like I have tried EVERY diet just to loose a little and gain a lot more, and I am now heavier than I have ever been! I've been on Weight watchers (3 times), slim-fast, xenedrine, phentermine, south beach, Atkins, the lemonade diet, bee pollen pills, juicing, HCG (both 800 and 500 calorie versions), and straight up starvation! I got down to 210 on HCG but it was so hard to maintain on my own that since I've crept up to the doorstep of 300lbs! After that, watching my mother and sister go through weight related complications from diabetes and high blood pressure. My sister is only 40 and she is facing knee surgery and can no longer work! My mother is not yet 60 and is experiencing everything from glaucoma to episodes of diabetic shock and kidney problems, which is beyond scary knowing my grandmother died from complications at around 58. In addition to all that, gaining more than 60 pounds in the last few years has forced me to notice how much my life has changed for the worst, I can barely lift my leg up to tie my shoe, I've had to have my work uniform repaired so many times I've been wearing pants with broken clasps the last few months because I'm too embarrassed to get them fixed again, having swollen feet and ankles in the mornings, sweating like a pig from a brisk walk, being short of breath when I have a lot to say (that's right talking leaves me gasping for air!), making excuses and straight up lying about why I'm sweating or short of breath ("I ran here from my car cause I didn't want to be late!"), having thousands of dollars worth of brand new clothes with tags on because every "motivation dress" I buy gets replaced by 2 pairs of fat jeans!! Lastly wanting to live! I'm in my early 30's and about 8 years ago one of my best friends had gastric bypass and I told myself I was going to do it on my own and I would never have to do something so drastic! Now I'm wishing I would have done it then, here I am almost 32, single with zero prospects while everyone I know is getting married or on their second baby (even girls I used to babysit are getting engaged!), not having the confidence to go for the things I want in life ( finding out I got passed over for a promotion because I was too scared to apply), and I am finding myself pulling away from friends and family, I lie about having to work because I don't want to go out and be the fat friend, I avoid pictures at family functions, I'll designate my self to stay in and babysit so I don't have to go out, I spent the last 2 trips to Vegas mostly in the hotel room, I have never been on a roller coaster because I have always been afraid of being too fat ( but I lie and say I'm scared of them), I haven't flown in a while but I have anxiety every time I think about the seat belts or spilling over into the next persons seat. I am still in the very early stages of the process, I have my orientation next month, but my doctor told me I was a candidate for the sleeve and I have had a physical and lab work done. I am hoping things go smoothly with the insurance, but I'm totally willing to go to Mexico and pay out of pocket because I really feel like I need this surgery to avoid a life for being a sick, sad, shut in! Sorry for the super long post but not only did I want to share my reasons for considering the surgery, but also needing to vent to people that understand what I'm going through!