NoMoreFatGuy

I understand. I started in April of last year and had surgery scheduled in July. Then changed jobs. The new job didn't cover surgery. In January we changed insurance and I was back on but had to start over. Then my insurance paperwork was lost. Then I thought I had to change doctors because of scheduling conflicts. I started the switch and then the conflict went away and I went back to the first doc. It is a long frustrating road. Especially when you are anxious about it and just want to get on with the next phase of your life. I am now two weeks preop and start liquid diet on Monday. It is a long slow process but when it starts happening, it feels kind of too fast so hang in there.

The shame is external, not internal. It's the way people make me feel about being fat. Even my family is shaming me for "not having the strength to do it on my own".

The ignorance about the struggle with obesity is so frustrating. It is one reason I am so ashamed. My own family is telling me I am crazy and just need to learn to exercise and eat better. What is funny is if somebody goes in for surgery for a knee replacement they don't tell them, well you just need to walk on it more carefully and wear better supports for it. Yet somehow, fat shaming is appropriate when someone chooses a medical solution. It is sad and infuriating.