Brittany Farside

Im a 30 year old Mother of two, and I recently had my surgery on Jan 19th, 2015. My family warned me not to do it, but I did it anyway. I am now 6 weeks out and everyday is a rollarcoaster of emotions and sadness. I have a great support system, but I am always depressed. I feel like its taking its toll on my family, my love life and my career. I am also a full time student, and my grades are slipping. If I do not keep them above a C, i wont get my funding. The main reason for my depression is I always feel weak and tired, I cant get enough Protein and Water in. All smells repulse me and i cant eat. On top of it all, I always have a tummy ache. I am also very constipated with gas, so I am guessing it has to do with that. I have been in the ER twice, and I miss the way i used to be. I keep getting UTI's, and i cant seem to swallow those large bactrim pills they gave me at the ER. I go to the Doc for my 6 week check up tomorrow, and I know he will just say "It's normal, give it time". I dont have time, I have a job and kids and responsibilities! I am at a complete loss, so all i do now is pray for relief. Also, they found a 1.1 cm mass on my liver during the CT scan at the ER, just one more thing to add to the mix of my messed up life right now. I did this to myself, and now my loved ones are suffering because of my choice.