Daisybelle

Don't I know it! I heard the "C" word 2 1/2 years ago and just completely lost it. Not outwardly - because that's not what I do - but inside I was mush for a long time. Thankfully, mine was easily treated - had a kidney removed, no chemo.. just twice yearly catscans and the dreaded wait for the results. It was a scary time.. but also a wonderful time... because you learn what people really think and feel and you realize just what matters most to you and you learn to live life.. not just drift through it. My prayers are with your family.. all of you. Because I know it is just as hard on the support staff as it is on the one whose body has been invaded.

I was so self-absored I forgot to mention this: For all of you that have outgrown.. well, undergrown??... your clothes you might try selling them on Ebay. That's what I did when I finally decided to buy a few new things and I did really well! Well enough to buy some new outfits & undies and all I sold were the things in really good (almost like new) shape. I can't wait to outgrow some more!

Oh well.. I've already blown it today. *sigh* If I can ever get past the 3rd day in a row I'll have it made. So, this afternoon starts a new try. Thank you guys for the help. I'm determined to beat this!

I'm not going to post my weight (gain or loss) for awhile. I really need to concentrate more on other areas and the scale is driving me mad. So, I'm going to put the scale in the closet and, if it's ok, I'll post my weight again in a couple of weeks.

Me too. I'm not even looking to get "skinny" I just want to be a healthy weight. Made it through one more day on my Quest to break the sugar addiction again. I did have a bite of my husband's dessert last night.. but only one bite. I feel the control returning! :confused:

You guys are great! :biggrin1: Thank you all. Wheetsin - for all the months after my surgery I had the same philosophy. If I wanted a little bite of something then I had it. I never deprived myself and it was so much fun and so satisfying to know that I could stop with a bite or two. But this is different. I can't explain how, but it is. I have to avoid the ice cream right now. I am substituting s/f pudding with coolwhip and I've got some s/f chocolates - neither of these satisfy the craving.. actually maybe it's more of a whole I need to fill than a craving. But, anyway, I have them and I use them - crutches because I am crippled. And I'm working hard at taking back control because, you know, the months after my surgery were the first time in my life I ever felt in control and I want that feeling back. I was happy and confident and emotionally secure and it was great. So, today begins the 2nd day.. my goal is 3. Thanks again for the help!

I've posted this before and I kind of feel like I'm whining, but I appreciate the offer of help so I'll go on. My mother died unexpectedly in January and I was dealing with a too tight fill at the time. Between the tight fill and the lump in my throat all I could get down was ice cream. So it's all I ate for a long time. And my sugar addiction came screaming back... of course. I was just too sad and stressed to care. But now I do care again and I am working hard to break the addiction once again. In fact, today is my very first day with no sweets at all! I've been a BEAR, but my family pretends not to notice. :phanvan Gosh, I love these guys.. and I don't want to die. So I'll conquer it once again! I have to. I can't even think one day at a time. Today I made it through one minute at a time.. it made for a really stressful day, and I'm not so sure tomorrow will be any better. But if I can make it through 3 days I think I will have it licked!

I just posted this in another thread, but will paste it here too in case you don't see it there... :nervous I live near Lake Charles and I drive alllll the way to College Station, TX for my fills and it's worth it. I love Dr. Stephanie Eijsink. She does fills only (no banding), has a band herself and makes appointments on weekends. I don't have access to her phone number at the moment, but you can contact her by email - seijsink@swmail.sw.org she checks often. Most of her patients have been banded in Mexico and she is not the least bit judgemental about it... unlike some local doctors I spoke with.

I live near Lake Charles, LA (in the southwest corner of the state) I drive alllll the way to College Station for my fills and it's worth it. I love Dr. Stephanie Eijsink. She does fills only (no banding), has a band herself and makes appointments on weekends. I don't have access to her phone number at the moment, but you can contact her by email - seijsink@swmail.sw.org she checks often. Forgot to mention that most of her patients have been banded in Mexico and she is not the least bit judgemental about it... unlike some local doctors I spoke with.

Chicken is difficult for me sometimes too, but I love it. Good for you too.

Hey Shontel, I live near LC too. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat.

That was my first goal! I'm 5'9" and weighed 403 before I had my surgery on July 27. I had lost 80 pounds by the end of the year but have since gained back 20... *sigh* For some reason I just never thought I'd have to worry about gaining weight back this soon! :faint: I know why it's happened and I'm trying to take back my control. I could really use some good thoughts and prayers if you're so inclined.

Hooray! What a great accomplishment!! :clap2: I have a tiny victory myself today... no sweets! yay, me!

I have always been addicted to sugar. I was able to break the hold in the weeks before my band surgery and was doing really well. But my Mom died unexpectedly in January and I lost control again. I was also suffering the effects of a too tight fill at the time and the only thing I could get down - the only comfort I could find - was in ice cream. Pretty much all I ate for about 2 weeks or more was ice cream in some form or another. I am doing better now because I haven't touched ice cream in a couple of weeks, but I am still having trouble with sweets in general. I feel very selfish because it's all I think of.. trying to break the addiction again. It's all I can do to be civil to people right now, though my family says they haven't noticed! :speechles Good thing they love me because I seem to put them through this way too often. I'm sorry too that I haven't been able to do more than come here to complain. I just don't seem to have the capacity to help anyone right now. Not even myself. Thank you all for asking.. for caring..

240.5.. + 1/2 pound... still can't break the sugar hold.. *sigh*

Just wanted to say "THANK YOU"! I'm in southwest LA and we were hit by hurricane Rita just a short while after Katrina. Though we haven't gotten nearly the attention that the "Katrinas" have, we are still very appreciative of all people like you are doing to help people like us. :clap2: Renews my faith in mankind. ======================================================== NOW, my stats for today: still 340 - no loss this week... pms... ... well, not so much pre... But tomorrow starts a new week and I am determined to get back on track.

I always blew up like a balloon on Actos. Metformin (Glucophage) is supposed to help you not gain weight and I had so much better results with it.. hope you do too! Great job, MollyMolly! Dawg - that 1st goal of yours is a big one for me too! But currently my #1 goal is to lay off the sweets.. My mom died in January and I've been gorging on sweets ever since... But I'm working hard at getting back on track. Tacking it one day at a time and doing ok.

Congrats, Heather! Doesn't it feel so good to have clothes that are too large instead of too small???? I'm at 340 today that's -3 for the week (-63 overall).

Hi All, My name is Holly. I'm 46 (actually had to think a bit before I remembered!! - Just shows I really am 46!), have been married to the same wonderful man for 27 years, and have a beautiful, kind, intelligent, hard-working 16 year old daughter. We are a homeschooling family living in southwest Louisiana and I am a licensed florist - currently unemployed by choice. I'm get tired of talking about my weight gain/loss/gain/loss/gain history so if it's ok I'll just post my stats. highest/surgery/current (total loss) 400+/403/343/ (-60) (Edited because I forgot to say some things)

Well, I do know what to do.. and how to do it.. but I just can't seem to get it done. My mother died January 8th.. I haven't even cried.. but I have gained 20 pounds... I eat sweets alllll the time... I had totally stopped.. but not anymore... alllll the time... not just occasionally. I can't seem to stop... I'm not sure I want to stop... I guess I don't know what to do. :help: :cry

Me too, please. Right now I need to be accountable. May not be so much about loosing weight for me as making significant changes in diet & lifestyle & such... but I'd like to be included.

Hi & Welcome. I have had hypothyroidism for over 20 years. I was banded July 27, 05 and I had lost 70 pounds by the end of the year. I am still on my thyroid medication but I don't think the disease itself has affected my weight loss adversely.

Thank you all for the kind words & for the prayers. I am listening.. and absorbing. I know that I will do the right thing eventually - I always do.. It's just always been really hard for me to find myself worthy of taking care of. I have been working on that and getting banded was a big step in the right direction. More than anything I don't want to mess that up. So, please don't stop praying. And thank you all again. You've helped more than you can know.

I think it happens that way for some. For me, it didn't. My stomach seems to be very sensitive. I didn't need a fill until just over 4 months after my surgery. The doctor put in 1.4 cc and it became increasingly tighter over time until I could barely keep Water in my stomach. So, she removed some... now I am at 1 cc and it's perfect. I can eat most anything if I am careful, but still get full quickly and the food stays in my stomach for a good while - keeping me satisfied.

Here I am pre-surgery at about 400 lbs., and at Christmas -70 lbs.