Daisybelle

Don't I know it! I heard the "C" word 2 1/2 years ago and just completely lost it. Not outwardly - because that's not what I do - but inside I was mush for a long time. Thankfully, mine was easily treated - had a kidney removed, no chemo.. just twice yearly catscans and the dreaded wait for the results. It was a scary time.. but also a wonderful time... because you learn what people really think and feel and you realize just what matters most to you and you learn to live life.. not just drift through it. My prayers are with your family.. all of you. Because I know it is just as hard on the support staff as it is on the one whose body has been invaded.

I was so self-absored I forgot to mention this: For all of you that have outgrown.. well, undergrown??... your clothes you might try selling them on Ebay. That's what I did when I finally decided to buy a few new things and I did really well! Well enough to buy some new outfits & undies and all I sold were the things in really good (almost like new) shape. I can't wait to outgrow some more!

Oh well.. I've already blown it today. *sigh* If I can ever get past the 3rd day in a row I'll have it made. So, this afternoon starts a new try. Thank you guys for the help. I'm determined to beat this!

I'm not going to post my weight (gain or loss) for awhile. I really need to concentrate more on other areas and the scale is driving me mad. So, I'm going to put the scale in the closet and, if it's ok, I'll post my weight again in a couple of weeks.

Me too. I'm not even looking to get "skinny" I just want to be a healthy weight. Made it through one more day on my Quest to break the sugar addiction again. I did have a bite of my husband's dessert last night.. but only one bite. I feel the control returning! :confused:

You guys are great! :biggrin1: Thank you all. Wheetsin - for all the months after my surgery I had the same philosophy. If I wanted a little bite of something then I had it. I never deprived myself and it was so much fun and so satisfying to know that I could stop with a bite or two. But this is different. I can't explain how, but it is. I have to avoid the ice cream right now. I am substituting s/f pudding with coolwhip and I've got some s/f chocolates - neither of these satisfy the craving.. actually maybe it's more of a whole I need to fill than a craving. But, anyway, I have them and I use them - crutches because I am crippled. And I'm working hard at taking back control because, you know, the months after my surgery were the first time in my life I ever felt in control and I want that feeling back. I was happy and confident and emotionally secure and it was great. So, today begins the 2nd day.. my goal is 3. Thanks again for the help!

I've posted this before and I kind of feel like I'm whining, but I appreciate the offer of help so I'll go on. My mother died unexpectedly in January and I was dealing with a too tight fill at the time. Between the tight fill and the lump in my throat all I could get down was ice cream. So it's all I ate for a long time. And my sugar addiction came screaming back... of course. I was just too sad and stressed to care. But now I do care again and I am working hard to break the addiction once again. In fact, today is my very first day with no sweets at all! I've been a BEAR, but my family pretends not to notice. :phanvan Gosh, I love these guys.. and I don't want to die. So I'll conquer it once again! I have to. I can't even think one day at a time. Today I made it through one minute at a time.. it made for a really stressful day, and I'm not so sure tomorrow will be any better. But if I can make it through 3 days I think I will have it licked!

I just posted this in another thread, but will paste it here too in case you don't see it there... :nervous I live near Lake Charles and I drive alllll the way to College Station, TX for my fills and it's worth it. I love Dr. Stephanie Eijsink. She does fills only (no banding), has a band herself and makes appointments on weekends. I don't have access to her phone number at the moment, but you can contact her by email - seijsink@swmail.sw.org she checks often. Most of her patients have been banded in Mexico and she is not the least bit judgemental about it... unlike some local doctors I spoke with.

I live near Lake Charles, LA (in the southwest corner of the state) I drive alllll the way to College Station for my fills and it's worth it. I love Dr. Stephanie Eijsink. She does fills only (no banding), has a band herself and makes appointments on weekends. I don't have access to her phone number at the moment, but you can contact her by email - seijsink@swmail.sw.org she checks often. Forgot to mention that most of her patients have been banded in Mexico and she is not the least bit judgemental about it... unlike some local doctors I spoke with.

Chicken is difficult for me sometimes too, but I love it. Good for you too.

Hey Shontel, I live near LC too. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat.

That was my first goal! I'm 5'9" and weighed 403 before I had my surgery on July 27. I had lost 80 pounds by the end of the year but have since gained back 20... *sigh* For some reason I just never thought I'd have to worry about gaining weight back this soon! :faint: I know why it's happened and I'm trying to take back my control. I could really use some good thoughts and prayers if you're so inclined.