Hi Everyone!
I don't really know where to start this is my first time reaching out for this kind of support but here goes....
I started this journey in the end of October as a solution to a back problem I severely herniated a disc and couldn't get help without losing a significant amount of weight. My back surgeon suggested weight loss surgery to help me get out of pain. SO... I met with a surgeon and was told i needed to lose 50lbs to be eligible for surgery. I started dieting and went through the rigourous weight loss program and got a surgery date of March 4th. I lost 50lbs as of 2/4 which is when I met with my surgeon for my pre-op appointment. I was completely devastated when he told me he needed me to lose 20 more pounds before February 23rd or he had to cancel my surgery. 20 pounds in 18 days?! is he crazy?!?!?! My grandmother bought tickets to come up from Florida to be with me, I've taken the time off from both of my jobs and now he tells me!? I'm so frustrated and tired and scared and overwhelmed and a whole bunch of other emotions I can't even begin to describe. Everything about this surgery scares me.. how will my life change? what about my relationship with my fiance and friends? am I still going to be the same person? am I going to be devastated because I miss what use to bring me comfort? Also, I know if I don't lose the 20lbs in 18 days my family will still love and support me but I'm going to feel so awful because all the money my grandmother spent on plane tickets. I guess I'm just looking for someone whose been through this to tell me it's worth it.. hard but doable... that there is a light at the end of this scary tunnel. Thank you in advance for any support that comes my way.
