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I got some food through finally. All I had through the day was a bottle of muscle milk, and a bottle of v8. Three bottles of Water as well. dinner was a bit too big. I had a bowl of chili and half a pb sandwich. I then had a handful of chips. As I said dinner was big but the total cal for the day was ok. No e-kill. I did get my brothers heap ot of the driveway. 265k mile Honda lives on!

@@JustWatchMe I think we all need to change the mindset of "I will always struggle with my weight". Im talking to me too, im not beating you up.. If we think we will always struggle then we've already given up. Why are we trying at all? Give yourself some credit. Deep inside you have hope of lasting change.

For some reason this morning I was taking my pills and one of them got hung up and it really hurt for about 3 hours. I have not had that happen for a real long time. The steange thing is, now I can barely get fluids in. No way am I going to get solid food through. I did call doc office and was told to go to the ER. I have no fluid in my band. So idk.. Thoughts??

I overslept this morning. so I did not get to pack my lunch, so I will be eating on the road all day. I guess I can still have a plan though, right? I will get plenty of Water my first stop. I will try to find a couple apples and a banana. I will only eat when I'm hungry today. I'll probably get a Protein Bar at some point. dinner wIll be under control eating whatever the commander fixes. as far as exercise goes,I will try to get and least 20 minutes elliptical tonight. I work on cars as a side business, and I have a project I need to get finished for my brother. so that may take up most of the evening.

Me and my bride are still kidless for the day. We got 6 inches if fresh snow. So I cleared 4 driveways this morn. We ate at bobs and I did ok. We will prob get a chipotle meal after bit. I will do chicken on fajita bowl. Prob a shake for dinner. And back on the road tomorrow.

Today was a real good day. As I posted this morning, I got 30 minutes on the e-kill. Eating was decent. Water was low. I joined the ymca today. A friend from church got us a referral discount and the company I work for pays for $350 a year, so it will be less than $100 a year. We took the youngins down home and dropped them off. Had lunch with my wife and grabbed a couple of movies. It has been real nice just the two of us. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids, but it has been a year since it was just her and I alone overnight. We watched a movie called Moms' night out. Very well done. I have not laughed that much in a while. Hope yall are killin it!

30 min e-killed it. Walked mostly. Feel sluggish.

Thank you ladies for sharing and caring. @@enjoythetime just to clarify, I think at this point I'm probably only going to weigh at the doctors. I just can't deal with the numbers right now. I'd love to hear how you are doing though. I have an apt with my family doc in 1 week. I will post that weight. I know yesterday was bad. I try to be tough and I was real weak yesterday. I was heading home, and out admin. asst. and I were talking and pretty much out of the blue she said "He (another driver that drives my truck at night), is the same age as my youngest. You know the one with the heroin addiction. I always think my son could be in his position with a good job at such a young age." Immediately we both started balling. I know all about her sons addiction and have been there for support for her. When you work at a place for a long time, you tend to bear each other burdens. I could only think of my own boys and how I pray they will never have to face these addictions. @@JustWatchMe You are right food addiction is real as drug and alcohol. I was an alcoholic before I was saved 10 years ago. I personally believe God took that desire for alcohol away the very moment I believed. I truly believe he take certain desires away from us and lets us rely on Him day to day with other sins and desires. Paul said he ask God three times to remove his "thorn in the flesh" , but God told Paul that He was enough and left him with it. I think one of the weird things about food addiction is, we need food to survive. One can certainly survive without alcohol and drugs, but not food. I'm not in any way saying it is easier or harder either way, just a weird dynamic. The stupid thing about food is it is celebrated and glamorized, even in the Church. Sorry for babbling, I'm simply trying to ignore the elliptical in the corner.. LOL.

Ok. I really want to get some exercise in. I feel like calling my brother up and hitting the wrestling mat for an hour with him, but that would just be nutty. He'd put a beating on me good. So I am going to shoot for an outdoor walk if it has stopped raining. I have a chiropractor apt in the morning, so I will get exercise in before that. I am going to flood myself with Water and wait for a stomach growl before eating again. I'm pretty sore around my band, so it will be mushies tomorrow. We are taking the boys to my dads and step moms. It is supposed to snow 9-12 inches starting at noon. REALLY hoping to get snowed in alone with my wife! Anyway, That is the plan for tomorrow. I will try to check in after exercise.

@ s_suther I guess it feels like I've been betrayed a bit. I really am that guy that will do anything legal for on of my guys. I am in a leadership roll as one of the more experienced drivers. So I try to carry myself as one to be respected. I do cut up a lot. And this was probably meant to be funny, but it just plain cut to the bone this morning. Call me extra sensitive, I don't know. Just so weird because I really did not see it coming. Ok I will get a plan together.

Todays eating: The good, the bad, and the ugly.. right?? Well It started with GOOD intensions. Quickly turned BAD, and became very UGLY as the day went on. You see, After I posted my plan, I weighed myself. I was thinking "Man, if I lost a couple of pounds, I will be on cloud 9 and really kick it into gear for the rest of the week." This did not happen. The scale said I gained 6 pounds in 2 days. I re-weighed 4 times and it always said the same thing, 276.2. So much for the boost in confidence. And IF I hear one more person tell me "It's probably just lean muscle", I'm pretty sure I'm going to karate chop them in the throat. There is nothing "lean muscle" about this body of mine. So onward to work. I'll just shake it off and move on. Get to work and the guy that drives my truck at night, left me with a flat tire. Highly irritated at this point I call a tire guy and sit down to go through e mail. I was gathering some stuff out of my (actual) mailbox, I came across a hand written note. It read: KEEP WALKING FAT A_ _. MAYBE YOU WILL LOOSE A FEW POUNDS THIS TIME... You see, everyone knows about my weight struggles and some have seen me walking from end to end of my truck while at the rack loading. I tried to shake it off, after all, I've been made fun of my whole life because of my weight. but this time it was different. This time I was not in junior high or even high school. I'm supposes to be working with grown men. I honestly cannot pin point anyone of the guys I would consider an "enemy". That is just not me. I really am one of those guys that goes along to get along. I strive to respect others at work. Expecially the senior drivers. So I get moving and load my first load. While unloading, I'm walking back and forth along side my truck. Instead of thinking about progress and goals and things I've over come already, I'm planning a binge. Yep, pre meditated. After all I walked over 6 miles and spent over an hour on the e-kill since I last weighed.... And I get 6 pounds back that I lost already. The plan was to eat plenty of "sweet treats" followed by "salty treats" "greasy and cheesy" treats for lunch and "frozen treats" for the ride home. I got into the "sweet treats" 2 big pack of them.. 10 minutes later I am throwing up. Bad Along side of the highway loosing it.. Crying because of the pain screaming in anger because.. I can't even binge right anymore. Needless to say, I never got to the other "treats". Depressed all day. More sweet treats on the way home. Big dinner too. I probably should just lie to you all and say I hit it out of the park today, but that is not right. I am sorry if anything I mentioned in this post made anyone stumble. Just being real. I do not have a plan for tomorrow. Quite frankly I do not care about it at this point. I feel the regret, no doubt. I am perplexed how easily my attitude could change in a matter of a few hours. I was not going to do this. This as in binge again. but here I am. Same place as last time. Have a good evening. (sorry if I brought you down, just trying to be honest)

B Sausage patties S banana L 2 oz summer sausage S apple d ??? My back is pretty sore (not an excuse, I think) so any extra physical activity will probably be out today. Ya'll have a good un'!

I have found a course that is Christ centered that deals with addiction. It has been a great help for me personally. If anyone is interested http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com/ @@s_suther my sincerest apologies for my earlier post joking about "sweet treats."

Eating went well today. Exercise included well over an hour walking at work. I got home and did 35 minutes on the E-Kill. It felt like I was in better control of it today. Seemed a bit easier is what I mean to say. Plenty of Water. I work tomorrow and then a couple of days with my bride!. Hope everyone is makin' it happen!

I'm digging the energy. I too am a food addict. I have been clean for just over 3 weeks. I had to start over if you will. I am glad you are here and hope you check in often. Would love to see you focus the energy into exercise. You are right, the band needs a "break" I think you probably have some swelling because of the binging. I know all about it. 3 days of liquids would really be helpful. So glad you shared! Let's do it!!

This moron works for a company that sells products to fat people. The only reason it (surgery) is distasteful is because you no longer have the need for their product. I grew up a fat kid with glasses.. this pelican head wants me to be ashamed for doing something to better my health.. please.. If his comments hurt your feeling worse than someone else's, you need to get a grip.

My favorite is "Why don't you just stop eating so much?" I want to say "Oh! Ok! Thats it! I never tried that before.."

The plan for today is: B 3 small sausage patties S 1 banana L turkey tenderloin. S apple D whatever the commander fixes.. it will be sensible amount. Walkin at work.. 35 min elliptical. GITTIN IT DONE! NO EXCUSES! NO REGRETS THIS WEEK!!!

Eating was on track and good. Exercise was another 3 mile walk outdoors. It warmed up to around 35 and The roads cleared off good enough to walk. Did not do the elliptical. Kinda missin it, but I need to get used to some impact if I'm going to get the 5k in. @@s_suther Pretty sure I may have said it before, but I will say it again. Thank you so much for starting this thread and for being so faithful in responding to every ones posts! I sincerely appreciate it!

@@ParaGirl 30 carbs a day is pretty low. I love the idea of low carb, anyone who has ever had success with low carb loves. That said, it can be hard on your body over an extended period of time. If you have ever had any diabetic concerns (many of us has) be extremely careful and test blood sugar and ketones. High sugar with positive ketone readings means trouble. For the first time in my life I am truly enjoying the taste of good natural sugars in apples and other fruits. Foods you are oble to have on low carb diets. I hope you don't see this as being critical, but I personally have gotten very sick by not monitoring while on low carb diets.

BTW 31 days until my first 5k event!! DO WORK!!

Well peeps, we got a fresh coating of snow and my lazy fat butt stayed in bed. I will probably e-kill it after church this afternoon. I did weigh in this morning. 269.8 so we will call it 270. Super stoked about this. food plan: B-2 egg omlet L- turkey tenderloin. D- I'm guessing chili from Wendy's

Yup. Just kiddin' Just typing it made me hurt. I went with around 850 calories. Some walking at work. Got home and it was still daylight so I did an outside walk. I walked every street in my hillbilly subdivision. Walked my street 2 times and it came out to (drum roll) (more drum roll)... 3.1 miles... yup 5 k.. It took me 55 minutes, so I know I have a lot of work to do. But it was 26 degrees out and I had worked 14 hrs earlier. I'm pretty pleased. Tomorrow I will try to do the same walk again if there is not snow on the ground. Hope everyone is killing it today!!

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@@2babutterfly I found it to be addictive once you get past the awkwardness of it and a few achey muscles you have not used in a while. The elliptical will give you a far better workout without beating your joints to death.. the rear flywheel type are even smoother but take up alot more room. I have a front flywheel Nordictrack 5.7e.