abigalesmomma

So I started this journey in May 2014 was told I had to lose 30 lbs and is get my date with a lot of determination & phentermine I lost the 30lbs by June. I go back to the drs office and the nurse completely crushed my spirit she told me she didn't remember telling me that and that id need to lose another 30lbs to have surgery. This crushed me I gained the weight back and now I'm stuck I'm back to dieting and the meds and nothing's helping I went back to the dr today and she was like what happened you could have had surgery back in June I'm like in total mental breakdown mode today. I feel like I'm in a rut. Idk what to do I feel like my family is not supportive. And I'm stuck trying to figure out this journey on my own... Help? I need advice how to help myself out of this crap situation...

I think it all just depends on the person I haven't had surgery yet and a couple months ago I met a lady that was telling someone about her surgery and how it was the best choice she's ever made while eating a Hershey's bar I sat there probably looking a fool with my mouth wide open then I asked but why are you eating the chocolate aren't you afraid of dumping and she said sometimes I like to eat bad so I can dump it's like a cleanse I sat there in disbelief because of all the dumping horror stories you hear lol I think it just depends on the person lol

This is the only hospital in my area that offers the surgery the rest are like 2hrs away. I met with the dr after the nurse crushed my bubble and he was amazing and had a big pow wow with the staff about how they act and things they say to patients. It's just frustrating that I go back in for weigh ins and the nurse plays stupid like what happened you were doing so good and it just makes me wanna cry and punch her in the face lol