andisuewho

I am really struggling. I had my gastric sleeve surgery just over 5 months ago. I've done well, but I'm now finding myself standing in front of the refrigerator or the food pantry when I'm stressed. I don't ever get sick if I overeat. I haven't thrown up since the day after surgery. Please help...any advice? Surely someone else must be experiencing this!

I'm just over 6 weeks out from surgery. I thought I would get really sick if I ate too much. I haven't vomited since the day after surgery. I can eat really anything I like, but in very small quantities. Three oz at a time makes me feel exceedingly full. The problem is, that feeling doesn't bother me. It's like an old blanket--somewhat comforting. I am getting between 800 and 1000 calories, but it's sheer willpower doing it. I need to be vigilant that I don't fall back into emotional binging. I have an auto-immune issue with fatigue, so whenever I get into one of those ruts, I tend to want to eat to create energy. It never works, but it's instinct, I suppose.

This is exactly why I didn't advertise to people that I was having the surgery. I even asked my gossipy mother not to say anything, although she doesn't respect my wishes. This was a very personal decision, and I want to keep the process to myself. My coworkers know because I was out for 2 weeks sick leave, but they are very cool and respectful people. They do cheer me on. I guess I have always been so ashamed of my weight, that I was ashamed of this surgery. Not really the healthiest mindset, but I'm just being honest. I will say, though, that at 6 weeks out, I'm feeling fantastic and quite proud of myself for making the decision. I had to pay 100% of it myself because my insurance (very good by most standards) would not pay a penny. I wonder if they realize how they fat-shame people by not agreeing it's worthy of insurance funds? Would they rather pay for a heart attack later? That's MUCH more expensive. All said and done, I'm pleased with the whole process and I agree that naysayers who carp about this being the easy route can go...well, you know.

My first post, so excuse any errors in it. I have contemplated lotioning myself up like the victims in the movie Silence of the Lambs so that maybe the skin will be more elastic and shrink a little? Probably a pipe dream, but I'll give it heck.