Twilight

hi ladies. Just a quick post to let you know I'm alive. Just very busy. Had the best intentions of getting on the eliptical last night here in the hotel but didn't get in until after 9 and just curled up in bed. I know I need to get up and move but by that time of night my back is just too tired. A little sore today. I know it's just tiredness, but makes me angry. I think I might be dropping poinds again. ... but not positive. I pray I'm on the downward side finally. it's been a very LONG winter. It's spring here in Helena and the weather makes me happy. Wish it was this nice at home. It was over 70 here the other day...at home still in the 40's. well better get to the office. This work sure does cut into my computer time!!!

Karla, Hugs. Don't worry about griping. We all get that way and you have a lot on your plate. We love you. Glad your dad is doing better. Sorry he fell. It's hard when he is so unwealdy. Traveling across the state today, be in a hotel Wed. night, driving home on Friday. Hopefully I'll be able to check in but don't worry if I don't. I'll be pushing my other 2 walkers to jump in and sign up finally. Hard to turn me down face to face!!! Have a great day ladies. Talk to you soon.

Karla!!!! How awesome are you? You are going to do an awesome job at being a bandster. You have the best group on the web, you have the best attitude, and you have the best goal (the 3day). How much better could it get? Long night. Had to pick the snomobile club scholarship winners. My head is tired. Talk to you later ladies.

Candice, were you sun sensitive before? I've been for about 10 years but if zoloft makes it words, I'm curious. Janet, really, how was Trace. I really want to see him in concert!!!! Besides him, Jimmy Buffet is my only other GOTTA SEE. Beth, zoloft is a small pill. Welbutrin was a small pill, but it never really did anything for me. Have no idea about the seraquil. Paxil is small but I never got any relief there either. Good luck. You can google antidepressant weight gain and antidepressant pill size and between the two maybe find which is most band friendly. Okay...gotta go. Have a great day ladies!

Glad you made it home. Hope you had a good time even if the weather didn't cooperate. Since it was a postponed honeymoon, it didn't matter what the weather outside was, did it?

Beth, I don't know what it costs without insurance, but there is a generic of zoloft and I get mine for $8 a month for the generic. It is very important not to take your mental health into your own hands....except that when your family physician doesn't know what he is doing. Will he send you to someone who does? Nothing is worse than feeling horrible mentally. and as Janet says, this band experience is 90% mental and if we aren't okay mentally, how can we expect to do well with our bands. Good luck! Let us know what you decide to do.

Yes Karla, it has been a tough week. Mine seems to have been one of the easier. We do need to celebrate our successes, look to our future, and count our blessings. It's just very hard to do that sometimes. On a good note, I'm making suckers today. I have made 70 without burning any. I've designed my tags but they won't print in dh's printer on cardstock. I'm sending them to the shop for him to print there and then we'll feed the cardstock through the copier, but I wanted to check them first. So I'm ready for my first fundraiser, I believe. Talked to a quilter friend of mine and she said she would charge me $50 plus the cost of materials for making me a quilt to raffle. I don't think I can swing that. Materials for a star quilt in and of itself are going to run me at least that much. So I'm feeling a little defeated at that. what else??? DH and Nick got haircuts today. That just leaves Jai, before Easter. I'm going to bob it up to chin level and hope that it feels and looks a little fuller that way. Good food so far today. Think I'm going to go out for dinner tomorrow instead of today so I have to figure something out there. Okay...off to make another batch of bubble gum suckers....hope they turn out better than they did last night. Those ones will rip out fillings for sure! Later ladies. Love you.

Denise, What a sad sad week. I'm so sorry. I've never lost a student of mine. I think I would need more counseling than the kids. How tragic for them. your own personal sadness makes my heart hurt. I want to cry just reading what you have gone through. It's without words. I am so very very sorry. I will be thinking of you.

Talked to surgeon. He said to keep an awareness of my headaches. If they get a lot worse when I stand than when I lay down, then I need to be seen. He said if they were a spinal fluid problem that I would be in a lot of pain. This is just a dull throb. I'm guessing from sleeping on the couch, my neck is a little off. dr. also said that the swelling is normal and not to bother with it. I think I'll go in on Monday and get my staples taken out. I could do it today but I'm a little scared. A couple extra days won't hurt.

I can't attach photos here for some reason. I was having that problem the other day. Rose is in my "random family pics" photos on Facebook. Sorry.:confused:

I thought I showed pics of Rose's FL. I'll try to find them again and repost. Janet, please ask him if he would like to marry me. you can't keep a big hunk of man like that all to yourself. BTW, Rose is heading south for a month long trip with a girlfriend. They are going to texas, over to yuma, then spending a couple days in Laughlin. I thought you are sorta near there, no? I told her I would give you dates when she is going to be there and maybe you could swing by. Today I have a headache for the 4th straight day. Not a bad headache just an ache. Have a call in to my surgeon's office. I will be on that side of the state next week so will try to stop by there and have them take out my staples and take a look. Just to be on the safe side. It's snowing here again today. I hate that! I have to say....I'm sick and tired of the crappy weather. If it doesn't turn soon I'm heading south! the lady with the sucker molds is bringing me the stuff this morning! I'm so excited. Mom and I are going to make our first batch this morning. Maybe we will be queens of the suckers :confused:) She has some materials so I don't have to wait to get sticks and bags. I do need to figure out flavors and order those. Need 2 different flavors. "Pink" flavors. going to look to see what the store has to make color "opaque". then I can do clear one flavor and not clear the other...and I can tell them apart :w00t:) Okay...off to referree the kids. They drive me NUTS some days!

Don't forget our darling Donna. She is new. She is a July 08 bandster but we forget that. And Car. I'm not sure when Car was banded...but she's one of us too. I talked to Karla on the phone. She is wiped out. Poor thing really has a lot on her plate right now. You all don't know how much you have come to mean to her. thank you for being so welcoming. I told her you would be. Not much happened today. I had really good food day. No junk! It's been a long time since I could say that. I am ALWAYS full when I eat solid protein first and then veggies. I don't know why I don't do it all the time. Call me stupid. Okay...going to have a good night again. Slept last night. Aided of course, but it was ALL night in my own bed. Going to do it again. Love you all.

Hi ladies. Quiet around here lately. Candice must still be trying to catch up...or too busy with her new modeling career now that she has such beautiful teeth. Janet is still trying to get over pulling a couple of teenagers along to keep up with her....it's hard to pull all that dead weight :smile2:) Car is trying to get her house ready for Candice's 2nd honeymoon. Denise is taking care of mom. Kari probably finally went in for a fill. Karri is ALWAYS busy with school. Karla is flying back from San Diego. Might be in SLC by now. Should hear from her soon. I can't think of an excuse for Phyl. Oh yeah, she's getting ready to get ready for her cruise ) I guess I'm the only one around here who still has NOTHING to do. Going crazy. Hate this. Want a nap. Should go for a walk. OMG!! Speaking of walks!!!! I have to share with you this walking training schedule. It's no wonder they don't share it with you until AFTER you sign up! every tues for 11 weeks you walk 3 miles then they begin to up the ante but it's not that bad. Most is 6 miles, then on Wed. you dod some sosrt of moderate cardio. Then on Thurs. you walk between 3 and 6 miles, Friday some sort of cardio for 30-45 mins. Then hell starts. Saturday the furst week is only 3, but then it's up up up from there until you are doing 15-18 miles those days. Then on sundays it's not QUITE as bad somewhere between 3 and 15. Mondays you get off for good behavior I guess. I may die! What have I gotten myself into? Who's crazy idea was this? Holy Cats! breath steph breath. Think positive. I'm positive it is going to kill me! Anyways, each week you walk between 12 and 45 miles. And in order to get all the weeks in I either have to start in the middle of the schedule or knock out one of the final weeks. I decided to knock out one of the smaller later weeks, but HOLY CATS! I'm going to die. and it will be....um...I guess it will be....all MY fault! If I take anyone with me, I'm apologizing in advance. I did not INTEND to kill anyone with this. Phyl, could I borrow your scooter? for day 2? Okay...going to go do something, even if it's wrong! Hugs all

Karla, First Hugs honey! This is the last thing you need right now. Second, take a deep breath. Remember the 3 steps? Get clear about what you want, visualize it, be specific. Begin living like it's already happened. If you are doubtful, those doubts will multiply themselves. Let it happen. Remember how powerful your wants are. And remember, you can only attract what you need for YOU. Can't think dad well, can't think sister a conscience. What do YOU need. Help? A way to pay for things while you take care of family? A lot of schools will allow teachers to donate days to a sick pool so that teachers don't have to take days without pay. You will have a solution. I don't have any doubt. You have your dad to deal with, let the Secret do the rest. Now....take another deep breath. You just had major surgery and need to focus on healing your own body. You will be no good to anyone if you are too wiped out to function. Get some rest, get positive. You will sleep better, you will heal better, and you will be better help to everyone. Oh...and don't you DARE try to lift your dad. No lifting for 6 weeks. Your body must heal! I know it is hard...remember, I'm there, but you have got to allow your body time to set your band in place. If you don't it will slip easier. Remember that. I'm thinking of you darling. Love you! Go take a nap!

Phyl, Did I mention the new purses? Okay...I need to go to bed...but here is the website. Miche Handbags - Interchangeable Purse With Multiple Colored Covers from Miche LOVE THEM! Bought one bag, 2 shells. LOVE THEM!!!

Karla didn't mention it, but her dad is in the hospital at home. She is going to go try to get a line to the US to call. Her cell won't call. Think positive about her dad.

Hi ladies. Just a quick check in. Insomnia kicked my @$$ again last night and I'm exhausted. Awfully quiet around here now that Janet is back. I'm thinking up fundraisers for my 3day. busy doing that. I was wondering if our resident quilter woman would be willing to make us a pink quilt for cost of materials (your time is priceless) that one of us could raffle off locally? I think I have some people here who would be willing to do one or two for me but Karri is in need of fundraising help. I'll pitch in for supplies though. Candice, if you are interested, pm me. You do such gorgeous work! I saw a really simple pattern at the quilt store yesterday and that was what made me think of it. Okay. Gotta run. Maybe get a few minutes of shuteye before they kids get up from their nap. Have a good afternoon ladies

You may be hungry...but it is head hungry. Trust me. You may feel like you are starving, but the gurgling in your gut is NOT hunger. Get used to it. Your stomach will be talking to you pretty loudly for the next 2 months. I was sure my students could hear the spit gurgle when I swallowed it. The kids did actually laugh a lot. The gas was a LITTLE more stressful and hard to hide :thumbdown: The swelling will be up and even if you tried to eat, you wouldn't be able to. A couple drinks of water and you will be satisfied. What I used to judge if I was truly hungry was if I was able to get all my liquid in and still say I was hungry, or if the liquid was enough for me. Pizza may sound good, but it would NOT feel good. Call instead of chew. You have the number. I think the phone was working, but my phone was on silent...oops. I sent out my first donation letter for my walk tonight. I did NOT hit any of you up. You are my support system, but if you want to do something, please help out one of the other ladies. Chis in San Diego already has over $400. I need to figure out how to get Karri $90 so she can sign up. Her not being on my team is NOT an option. Phyl, I found the most amazing purses today. Don't tell Earl,but we have GOT to talk. You are not going to believe them. I'll find the website. All I can say is AMAZING! LOVE LOVE LOVE!! Let's talk. Okay...very tired. There is more I want to say but too tired to think about it now. Love you all!

sorry ladies. I'm behind. Got a call from Karla from Salt Lake. They had double booked her out of Missoula but she threw a well deserved fit and they let her on. She was double booked out of SLC but it seems to have been fixed. She is going to call me tomorrow. I am amazed at you Janet! I wish I was half as adventurous. Okay. Tired. Going to bed.

Gorgeous teeth Candice. You really did get a nice job. but I do know what you mean about being home. There really is no place like it! Now if our other Mexican Senorita would just show up, All would be good in Lucky 7 land.

Karla is back at home with flight canceled. She is so upset but trying to see the positive light. Talking to her now. I will make her smile if it kills me.

That makes so much more sense. I thought she was going to be gone just a few days. Whew. I hope she had an awesome time. On the other hand, we had better jump up the number of posts to see if we can drive her really crazy with number of pages she has to catch up on:tt2: That wasn't really nice. I guess I'm tired. Talk to you later ladies. I'll be in a better state of mind next time I talk.

Morning ladies. Just a quick check in before church. I should be putting on my face. Is Janet getting back soon? It was just a 3 day cruise wasn't it? I'm starting to worry. Phyl, you would know her plans better than the rest of us. When does she plan on being back? Okay...off to get dressed for church. I still have Jai to get ready!

Oh ladies! I was completely out of touch today. Jeff and I went to Williston and had a day out for just us. Shopping. I promise, I walked slow and didn't bend or stretch. Made him carry all the groceries. Went and played cards tonight. Didn't play overly well but enjoyed it. Started watching I am Legend but had to turn it off and will finish it tomorrow in the daylight. Jeff says I'm a whoosy. I bet Karla is off already but I just found out that Christasha lives in San Diego. I know she can't take any time off, but at least there would be someone close if there were any struggles. Also, Karla has no idea how beautiful she is....even heavy. She is going to be a total knockout by next summer. And I could give Karla that pound for pound comment because she has been working on the math standards with me....and knew she would chuckle. It's the same as someone telling me we aren't on a diet...uh...yeah...we are....my diet is whatever I eat, good bad or indifferent, it IS my diet....just because some see it as a dirty word, the science person in me screams everytime it's put out as a dirty word. ... anyways, we all have our biases. Denise, I know you know we love you and know we say what we do with uberlove. I've begun to have a drink or two of dh's soda. I even drank a diet pepsi last week when I was so miserable. Oh..and 1/2 a diet squirt tonight. It was the TWO of them WITH all the food. all docs have different restrictions and I'm not going to freak out about breaking a rule here and there...it was just the combo that I couldn't let go. Love you. Okay...Jeff rolled his eyes at me and told me he was going to bed. I'll try not to have nightmares. Good think I'm going to church tomorrow...I'll need the good karma. Night ladies. Have a great Sunday.

Chris and Karri, I need photos to add to my page. I don't know how to steal them from you so would you email me them. I can resize them and upload.