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Hi there ladies. I hope you all had a good day. No walking today. Jeff and I went shopping out of town instead. Not good on the munching on the road. That is one time that I can't seem to stop the hand to mouth. Maybe I should try to pop popcorn before I go and can munch on that. Maybe that will help me. I'm starting to freak about my speech tomorrow. I tried to find something to wear at Walmart tonight....no luck. I guess teal isn't the color of the year. I finally picked something but I'm not crazy about it. Bought it, but if I find something I like better in my closet I'll take the stuff back. We'll see. Karla, you'll get used to the feeling. You may be too tight but it may be just because it hasn't been that long. After every fill I have a whole new list of things I can't eat. Things I could before now I can't. It seems very crazy. There are a lot of physiological reasons why you are tighter in the mornings, but I can't remember what my team has told me. There is something about my band and stress though. And there are things I that I can eat at home but can't when we go out and others that I cant at home but can when I go out. For the pain there are two things you need to stock up on pineapple juice and papaya tablets. Both act similar to draino. I keep pineapple juice at my house at all times...and papaya enzyme in every vehicle as well as my medicine cabinet. We may have to think about a cruise like Janet went on. I love the idea....and Janet can show us the ropes and take us ziplining (says the baby who is scared of heights). Okay...there were other things but I have to go to bed. I'll talk to you later. Love you ladies.

Good morning ladies! Hope you all have a great Friday. Karla, that quilt shop sounds like an amazing idea. I don't know if the area you are in is big into quilting but I think it would be WONDERFUL. Scrapbooking shops are sometimes like that so I'm sure a quilt shop would be awesome. Phyl, we will miss you. I wish I was going with. I love the thought of going on a cruise. Just wish I could talk Jeff into it. He's such a "someday" kinda guy. Maybe when we finally reach retirement age. Have fun shopping. And tell Earl if you don't have a second suit case, you'll either have to buy one on the cruise or he'll have to carry all your bags. Leave it up to him. My feet feel better today. The blister that was on my left foot is not there anymore. I'm still going to get something to pad it when I walk today. I'm not sure how far I will go, but we'll see. I'm going to start walking twice on Tues and Thurs. while the little ones are at daycare. I can go in the morning on my own. I'm going to throw in a little running with it. I'm sure to begin with it will be run a block, walk 3....but hopefully I'll be building up my stamina and soon I'll be able to say I can run a mile. I was hoping to run the 5k that I walked last year, but found out that it is on the same weekend that my niece is coming from Texas and I won't be here. That's frustrating. I'll have to find a different one to run this summer. The suckers are for fundraising for my 3day. My darlings at my old school have been buying them. I left a bunch in Lincoln at my brother's restaraunt, and I gave a bunch to one of my teammates. I enjoy making them. Something sweet that I can make and don't want to eat. Today I need to cleanup my speech for tomorrow. I'm starting to freak out about it but as long as I stay busy I'll be fine. I think I'm going to go downtown and see if I can find a dress in their class colors. So much to do, and no motivation to do any of it. I suppose if I got out of this chair it would help. I'll talk to you ladies later, I'm sure. Have a great day. Oh....Candice. Starting Monday we'll wii. Anyone else want in? Okay...NOW I'm off.

Hi ladies. Busy day. I thought I was doing good on cals today. But no, by the time I figured all of I was up to 1500. Taking my 7 miles into account it is in decent range, but I was going for sticking under 1200. I'm so frustrated at that. I'm tired. 7 miles was really more than I should have done, but then when have you known me to do what I should. Karla, don't kick yourself about your student. Things happen. It's not the best, but at some point you snap. Write it down. It will work out. As far as your food, take Janet's advice. She knows what she's talking about. Save your cals for the evenings. Pack your evenings with protein rich snacks. Okay. I'd better get to bed. I am very tired. I'll talk to you in the morning. Good night ladies.

Good morning ladies! I'm leading a life a leisure Karla. I can't deny it. I'm actually up and moving much earlier today. Maybe that is why I can't seem to lose any pounds. I have a funny pain in my back today. It's right where my left kidney is I imagine. It only hurts when I move though...so it's not a kidney problem. Just a funny pulling sensation. Need to get a bunch of stuff done today. Make suckers, clean house, edit my speech, get to the flower shop. I know there is more. I have a question for anyone who used it. I have 2 big jars of unjury that a friend gave me. I need to start using them or they will go bad. They are about to expire. The problem is that they don't have a "scoop" and the directions say add "1 scoop". I have no idea how big a scoop is supposed to be. If anyone has used it and has a scoop, will you measure it and compare it to a 1/4 cup for me. You don't have to be exact, but if you could, I'd appreciate it. Karla, glad you got some calories in. It is so important. Without around 1000 you tend to get run down and frustrated. It's got to be wonderful to feel your ribs again! Just wait until you have hip bones. It was the most amazing thing I had happen. I'm staying away from the farming on FB. I don't have the energy to be addicted to something else. I just can't do it! I have to stop. I keep hearing about all this farming and it makes me tired just thinking about it. besides, I'd go broke being a farmer. I know it. Off to FB and then to get stuff done. Have a great day ladies! Talk to you tonight.

Hi ladies. Just a quick check in. Went to the store last night and bought some fruit and veggies. I'm going to focus on getting in all the good foods. It is iced tea season. I am so excited. Between Jeff and I we could drink a gallon a day. Then, I make iced tea yesterday and today it spits snow. Go figure. Karla, ask you new fill doc how long between they recommend. My team won't do it before 4 weeks. It has taken up to 2 weeks a couple of times before my fill has "kicked in". I don't know why, but I know it happens. Whoever asked, my back has been feeling pretty well. Last night there were a couple of times while I was walking that it hitched a bit but not a lot. I know I need to watch that. I promise. It's snowing and blowing today so I don't know that I'll even try to walk tonight. Going to do some wii fit while the kids are laying down. I am getting really jealous about all of these trips you guys are taking. I'm going to Vegas in a couple of weeks, but that just doesn't sounds as wonderful as Europe, cruises, or BOTH! I need to convince Jeff we can afford a cruise. Honestly, I would LOVE that. Maybe once he feels better about his weight. On that note, he's been pretty good about food. The problem is that we don't have a scale that will weigh him accurately and he doesn't want to go to the docs office to weigh in each week. He says that doesn't matter but I think it would inspire him. Okay...time to go. Talk to you later.

Forgot to ask...Candice, what about the wii challenge? Karri, Phyl, and Karla have them too. Phyl has issues though so I think we should tell her she can't do it. Not until she has a consult with PS.

Karla, how horrible for you. Had my first fill gone that badly I don't think I could have done it. I'm so sorry for you. to your questions, my team says liquids for 24 hours, then add in "as tolerated." I was told that I needed to stop after 20 minutes and that is all. You can save what is left for your next meal, but not to go back to in an hour. I know it sounds silly but in 20 minutes you should be able to chew up enough to get you through. Until you have the correct fill that might seem really hard. Which answers your last question. That's how you know you need another fill. My team asks 1. how much do you eat at a meal (should be 1 cup or less), 2. how many meals do you eat (should be 3) 3. how many snacks a day (should be 0 but they aren't concerned if it is 1 or 2) 4. do you wake up hungry (should be no). 5. something else, but I don't remember. Had a nice day today...got my permanent crown, walked 5+ miles, Jeff came home for "lunch", wrote my grad speech. I'd say it was pretty productive. Food wasn't great. I'll have to daily plate it before I know how bad it was. Better run away for a bit. Talk to you all soon. Love you.

Karla, waiting to hear how your fill went. Check in darling, let us know how you did and what you thought of your Dr.

Glad to see you back Ruby. It's amazing how just coming here and telling everyone how you are doing can make you feel so much better. sorry for your frustration with the move and the sickness. How horrible to have to do both of those together. But the move didn't happen for a reason and even though its hard to think that way, try to put a positive spin on it. I've not done a lot today. A bit of housework and time with the kids. Didn't get to wii because I was watching the celebrity apprentice finale. Now nick is wii'ing and I have my biggest loser to watch tonight. All of a sudden I got very very tired. Go figure. Talk to you later ladies. Again, Ruby, glad you are back to posting. Hugs 2 you.

Happy Monday ladies. Just wanted to pop in to say hi. My back actually didn't feel that bad this morning. I didn't get on the wii to weigh in. Guess that will be tomorrow's job. I'm going to try to get on it while the kids nap this afternoon. I'm going to see if I can still do the run. I don't remember if they tell me how far I've run or not. Karla, good to see your girls took care of you. You are such an amazing mom! How far your girls have gone is a testiment to that. Candice, I think I'm ready to start that wii challenge. What would you like to do? Is there a way to do it online somehow. I know it is connected to the dsl but don't know what all it does with that. I think if we do it we need to hit all the catagories. I usually only do the aerobic ones but know that my balance, yoga, and strength need done too. Let me know what you are thinking. Anyone else want in? Car, are you still around? Haven't heard from you. You are my goal girl....you can't just pop off now that you've made it. I am going to get there this summer!!!! I need you to help me. Well, kids are still goofing off in their beds instead of napping so I guess it's time to go tear into them. I gave them a 1/2 hour to settle in...now it's time to sleep. Talk to you tonight ladies. Hope you have a great Monday!

Good evening ladies. I hope you all had a marvelous Mother's Day! Karla, I'm sure your girls did something wonderful for you even though you had to work. My day was good. Michael was confirmed. I'll have to get the pics off my camera and put them up here or on facebook. He looked so grown up. He has been really good the last few days. We haven't been fighting. He's not been arguing. It has been so nice. I talked to him tonight before he went to bed...about how nice it's been. Jeff and I just watched License to Wed. I have to stop napping, because now I'm not tired. Imagine that. Did do a little bit of yard work. My back is a bit sore. Took some muscle relaxer. Hopefully it puts me to sleep shortly. Okay. I'm off. Talk to you all tomorrow.

Hi ladies. I'm home. I can't say I had a great day food wise yesterday. I was alright until I started driving home...but didn't leave western MT until 5pm.....made it home about 1145. Today my butt is feeling crappy. I need to go get in the shower but I'm so tired. God help me. I think it will be nap time before shower time. I will weigh in Monday. Hopefully it will be the same as it was last week. As long as I didn't gain I will be happy. i'm pretty sure I couldn't have lost. I was very unconcerned during my trip. Bad way to be. Phyl, you will be able to find a doc to take your insurance. I know you will. don't let something that is so important and worth it get away from you so easily. You are so worth it. Don't give up! Karla, I know you are busy this weekend so I'm not going to call, but I completely agree with Karri and Janet. Big way to get around eating...be strict about the water rules. No eating 1/2 hour before or after drinking and when you are hungry, insist that you drink 12 oz of liquid. If after the 1/2 hour you are still thinking about food, have something. My snack of choice in the beginning was beef jerkey. High in protein and will expand in liquid. It also takes a long time to chew it down to the point you can swallow it. After 2 or 3 pieces, if I still wanted more I had to drink another glass of something and wait. More often than not I forgot about being hungry in that 1/2 hour or it was too much work to go get ANOTHER glass of water. Don't say horrible stuff about yourself. You will slip up. The way my NUT explain it was, once it is called a lapse. If you take that, learn something from it, and get right back on track, that's all it is. It is when we then tell ourselves that "today's shot, I'll start again tomorrow, or monday, or in January" that we RElapse. You can jump right back up and regain control. You're beautiful, amazing, and so very much worth it. Remember that, repeat it to yourself, and BELIEVE it! Love you. Candice and Karri, I hope today is better for both of you. It is so hard to be sick :glare: Watching QVC and it's food hour. I think I'd better turn it off. I just ate and my mouth is watering. grrrr. Going to go get a nap and enjoy my quiet house. Maybe lay on the floor with my greys....they look so comfortable. I'll check in with you all tonight. Love you all.

Hi ladies. sounds like everyone is having an alright day. I'm not fighting with Michael yet, so that's a good thing. He is working on a science paper. I'm having a hard time being the teacher on this one. I have him write it and then we talk about what it's missing...he edits...we critique it again. I have a feeling the teacher is going to say he had too much help, but then, what is the point?? to learn to write better? That's my goal. Hopefully he is learning that. More hopefully....she will accept that. I can't believe that as an 8th grader, he has such horrific writing skills. Went to lunch with my sister. We split an indian taco. It was awesome even though I ate very little of the fry bread. I was too busy this morning to eat breakfast. Before you all jump, I already slapped myself up along side of the head. I'm thinking about going out walking in a little bit, as soon as lunch settles. I found a website I want Michael to work on but he has to be supervised while he's online...grrr...so I think he'll do P.E. with me. Part of my walking is time by myself, but better walking without accomplishing that goal then not walking at all, right? There are a million things I was going to get done here this week and have not been able to get any of them done. Or just haven't attempted. I guess that lack of motivation followed me here. I thought maybe it was just an "at home" thing. I have been up and showered and dressed by 8 every morning but this morning. ... so that's a step in the right direction I guess. Okay. I need to go check on my FB stuff. Have a gr8 rest of the day!!!

Hi ladies. A very quick check in. Thanks for missing me Karla. It was definitely a DAY! Didn't sleep well last night because of the kid. He was up a couple of times. Finally about 4am I heard him go back to bed...thought he was getting up...and find he's been on the computer....again....because he's obviously found my mom's password. grrrrrr So we had another feud this morning...I was a horrible mother, he hated me, any other would be better...blah blah blah. Went over to my brothers to get coffee...he came and tore into him. I don't know what he said, but I came home and I've NEVER seen Michael so upset. He was hysterical sobbing for 45 minutes. I hate to say it, but I think it did him good. I sent him to bed since he hadn't slept the night and he was good as gold this afternoon. He made spaghetti for dinner for the whole family (8 of us) I had a little, salad, and fruit. Then managed to go walking for 5 miles. Even ran a LITTLE bit....maybe 300 feet. I'm beat from being on guard duty all night. I changed passwords and took all possible fun away tonight...he'll sleep. On the positive side, he did get all his work for school done today. One day early. Tomorrow is all about what I want him to learn. Would "how to chew yourself out of a roll of duct tape" be too harsh of a lesson? probably. I hear the rain starting again. I suppose I won't be walking with my sis in the morning. Too cold in the mountains when it rains. It's on the verge of snow. I'm too big of a wimp. Karri, beautiful story, sorry about the keys....and TOM (Gosh I hate him!)....get some sleep. It's almost over this week and then you can take a day for YOU. Promise??? ONE day! to do nothing. You have GOT to rest. Karla, keep some yogurt around. and string cheese. string cheese will last for months in the fridge. no reason to run out of that. I've been going to look into hummus. I've never had it but everyone keeps talking about it, so I think I'm going to try it. Oh...and because they may become a food you can't tolerate after a fill, if you love eggs, enjoy them now....just in case. I can't do them most days...but every now and then. Candice, I need to put my list on here too. Maybe if I go back into my archives I can find it. It would be interesting to read. I was reading some of my first few months posts....man I was with it. I had it all together! Where the hell did THAT woman go? I need to get back to her. Chim, so very sorry you lost your band, but so thankful that your baby is doing well. In the grand scheme of things, your band is very minor. Keep us up to date on your pregnancy. I can't wait to see pics. Okay...too tired to think. Gotta get to sleep. The rain will be a nice sound to sleep to. Love you ladies. Have a great Thursday.

NO more talking about biggest loser! Its waiting for me on tivo at home. shhhh....don't tell me....I don't want to know. the suspense is KILLING ME. Oh..and Celebrity Apprentice is waiting there too....so sshhhhh....Don't make me cry! Karla, didn't get a chance to call. Michael and I had to have a heart to .... (what exactly is it that a 14 year old uses to mash his mothers heart to bits with?) heart to something or other. This too shall pass...tomorrow is another day....he's just a kid.....he will grow out of it.....they are all like that....I'm not alone. I know it all. You guys have been awesome....but no matter what my HEAD knows....my heart still hurts. I just keep repeating....this too shall pass...tomorrow is another day....he's just ....... I got stuck this morning on toast....dumb me for trying to eat it in the first place. no lunch....by 2 I was starving. Tried pineapple juice. Thought it had worked....tried some raisins....nope.....finally after 3 cups of coffee and a hot chocolate, this evening I got taco salad down. Damn the stress to hell. Tomorrow might be a complete yogurt day. my water tonight is still funnelling. Okay...off to bed. hopefully to sleep. tomorrow is another day.....he's just a kid....

glad you came back to the best place on LBT (IMHO!!) Get ready for some amazing support. Those here are the best group of ladies I think anyone could hope for. BTW, I was banded in Bismarck 5 months to the day after you were. I had lost 75 pounds....have gained back...but am still fighting the fight. We are not going to be able to call it a knockout ever, I don't believe....but we will be able to call it victory at some point. Karri had some issues with certain meds that she just couldn't take. I take zoloft for depression but nothing for stress. The zoloft didn't have any hunger issues. Thank the good lord that I have not had to deal with the change yet...even though good ole TOM kicks my @$$ every month. Stress is a killer for me. It truly can't be beaten. Welcome home and I hope we can help you!

Karla, I'm calling tonight. You need a good old fashioned chat. You can get it all out and then feel better. I agree with Janet. You are worthy. You are an amazing woman. What do you do???? You teach. you influence the minds and values of the upcoming generation. You build character every day. You give your heart and soul to your students. What does you family do? Doesn't sound like much. Who has more value???? Money can buy things, but your influence will go on forever. No amount of money can buy what you do. No amount of self love can equal the hero worship you engender in the coming generations. Tell them to go suck rocks and DIE!!! My dad told me I was found under a rock...my mom found me and asked if they could keep me....he said no, but they couldn't find the rock I crawled out from under so they had no choice. Janet's family....need to get flushed....Karri's mom....flush....so let's flush yours too. think of that movie...flushed away or whatever it was. Think of them down in that sewer....the floating turds that talked (yeah, they were slugs but they looked like turds). Everytime they say something unkind just think, "But I'm not a turd with eyes." Hugs my friend. I'll call tonight.

good morning ladies!!! How are my friends? Yesterday was a crazy day...as was the day before, so i didn't have time to post. My doc appt. went fine. He couldn't give me any definite answers about my other discs. He says he's seen backs in a lot worse shape than mine that didn't have any symptoms and backs in a lot better shape than mine that needed serious help. He says what they look like doesn't automatically tell him what they need. It's a matter of symptoms and since my symptoms are manageable, there is nothing to be done. Now...before you take that to mean I hurt....I do, but not seriously. I've hurt like this for the last 15 years. It's normal aches and pains and he gave me suggestions on what I can do to hopefully improve that. I can begin almost any other exercise program as tolerated (he cautioned me that didn't mean do it until I couldn't do it anymore and then stop :thumbdown: ) but no side to side stuff....no raking the yard or serious yoga moves. He suggested that I might want to get some physical therapy at home to let an expert begin to strengthen my core muscles back up before I damage something trying to do it on my own. Stretching, walking, biking, running, are all acceptable as long as they don't hurt. Suggested I don't go buy a kayak and start rowing for another month Michael's first day of homeschool went about as well as can be expected. He was mad, but I didn't lose my temper. I asked him to rate his feeling on a scale of 1-10 on a variety of things before this started and at the end of yesterday and we had made some improvements. He liked some things, hated others. Had to do one assignment 3 times.....but all in all, a productive day. I didn't get out and walk yesterday, however....we were "in class" all day that we weren't traveling. Oh well....I'll get out there today. yesterday was supposed to be a rest day anyways. I ate fairly well yesterday. A sausage burrito from McD's yesterday morning, a veggie burger for lunch (1/2 of one) and then the meat out of Michael's hamburger helper last night. Liquid, not so good. Right now I'm eating my kashi and yogurt. Water bottle is already filled and waiting to begin after my morning coffee. Okay...I've gotta get a few more online things done. i'll talk to you later ladies. There are comments I want to make to each of you, but I'll wait until Michael is working on his science paper to do those.

Hi ladies. A late check in. Was busy all day. I did 6.1 miles walking today...but my nike+ thing screwed up twice and didn't record it. Frustrating....especially since Karri challenged me for the month of May. So unfair, since tomorrow she's going to get 26 miles. Karri, you go get it girl!! I wish you great joy. As for crying as you cross the finish line....I would be surprised if you didn't. It is an amazing accomplishment. You have so much to be proud of. Candice, it sounds so crazy. Of course the bosses don't come in...that would be beneath them. How freaking rude!!! I'm hoping that Monday I'll get clearance to do something other than walk. I tried to jog a little today, but it wasn't very comfortable. didn't hurt, but it didn't feel right either. Only did it for about 10 steps. Hopefully he'll give me something better to do. Okay...better run. Have a great day tomorrow everyone. I'll be travelling across the state.

Good Lord, give me strength! I just got an email from school. Michael told a teacher he left 2 assignments at home. Uh...no....he told me he didn't HAVE ANY in that class! I swear I'm going to kill him! Is he REALLY that thick? does nothing phase the boy? Oh...and then yesterday his boss tells me that maybe I'm too soft on the boy and that's why I'm having all this trouble. And here I'm thinking he's going to call child protective services on me because he says I'm such a horrible mother. Too soft....yeah..that's it! They don't even make enough Calgon! Nowhere near enough. I need the space shuttle to take me away!

Karla, Just a word to Doris....it may take you 3 or more fills to feel true restriction. you have to be prepared for that to happen. I always felt tighter immediately, but that restriction was short lived for a few months. Others felt restriction with 1 or 2 fills. You just have to be prepared for it if it happens so that you don't sabotage it. There are still times when I tell myself that I need a fill...but when I am completely honest with my food choices and eat like I'm supposed to, I am plenty tight. I can only eat 1/2 to 3/4 of a cup of solid protein. I HAVE restriction. However, I'm not great at following that rule and if I don't, then I don't have restriction. It's all in the mind games we play. I went last night to my user control panel and looked at all the posts I had made telling people how I was being successful and told myself that it was time for me to start taking my advice and following my rules. None of them were beyond me...none were too difficult. I just have to buckle down. Okay...off to get kids ready. Jai is still sleeping. It's a miracle.

Hi ladies, Just a quick check in before I call it a night. Thank you for all your words of encouragement. They mean so much to me. I did talk to one of his teachers tonight. She called and we cleared the air. I explained that I was going to try to do that at this meeting but that they left so quickly that I couldn't. I explained all the things that I was feeling and she could see where I was coming from. She agrees that this time with Michael next week will probably be really good for him. I feel better about that in some respects. Now, I just have to get back on plan and stop feeding my anger/frustration/fear. I've not been over calories most days but definitely not making the best choices. Didn't walk tonight because I went to dinner with DH. karla, the fill will be fine. I've heard he does a good job. I don't know if they are blind or under flouro. I worked myself into such a tizzy before my first fill that the minute she poked me I started to cry. Didn't hurt, there was no problem, I just was so completely stressed out that I lost it. She had to poke a couple of times but really it was easy. Since that first time, she comments about my tears everytime but she has poked and got it every time. I can give you more detailed description of the fill process privately, but I'm sure every dr. does it just a little bit differently. Maybe go to the MT thread and ask for any of his patients to answer any questions. BTW, the lady here who went to Colorado and then Roher did her aftercare...I haven't seen her, but I heard she has had her tummy tuck and is in a size 4. I guess she looks amazing. The teacher I know that he did her surgery, last time I saw her, she said it was 4 months after surgery before he actually did any adjustments because she was losing just fine without any. She has only had 1 or 2 I believe. Last I heard from her, she was doing wonderfully. Okay...storm has knocked out our satellite. Going to miss Criminal Minds being recorded. grrrr. I'd better get to bed. Have a great night ladies. Talk to you tomorrow. Oh...a positive thing about today....per karla's orders....Michael had his confirmation pictures taken tonight and he was sooooooo handsome and grown up looking. He cleans up really good, that kid :thumbup:)

God, give me strength. I was shut down by the principal before I could even say what I wanted to say. He didn't believe it would be "productive." And then when they had said what they thought they needed to say, the teachers were dismissed to work on curriculum. Why I needed to be there for that is beyond me. It was pretty much nonessential. I'm so frustrated. And then I was chastised for what I said on facebook. Again, what the hell. Now I'm the bad guy. I'm so sick of this. They have closed ranks because I hurt their feelings on facebook. Big hairy deal! I AM taking Michael out of school next week. This is nuts. I will get all his work done and then some and they can kiss my rosy red hooohah! I'm just sooooo angry. I get chastised and they get to go on their merry little way. I'm just so upset. Okay..I'm off.

Karri, work sucks, food sucks worse. I'm so very sorry you have to go through this crap. Do you have any support system at school besides the Principal? You need to have some people in your corner too. I know the stealing your lunch really sucks because you had it planned, but try to believe that whoever took it must have really needed it. It's cold and supposed to snow tonight so I'm going to walk in the school tonight. I know that 4 laps in the school is 1 mile so I will be able to calibrate it tonight. 20 laps in the school sucks though...can just imagine how boring it would be on a treadmill. I'm going to do it though. No choice in the matter. Starting to freak about the meeting at the school. Only 1 more hour. My blood pressure is rising, the pressure in my chest. I want to puke. God, give me strength.

Probably wise, but darnit!! I'm going to be out there NEXT week! I guess I'm going to have to make the drive over. If I do, would you like to go see the greyhounds with me? They just got a bunch of new ones in. They are in Victor. I just want to see all the new darlings. Their pics are gorgeous. Okay...I really do need to get something done, but don't know what.