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I'm 10 days post op and I have had nothing but regret this whole time. I was in so much pain after the surgery and I'm still hurting now. I can't sleep and am tired all the time. I have lost 14 pounds and I'm happy about that. But my mindset right now is just regret so much so that I keep looking up reversals!!!! It's craziness! My husband is super supportive and helps me feel better but everyday the same feeling keeps creeping back in. I hope this will pass soon. Another issue I'm going through is mourning food. I know this for my health and I keep telling myself that. I'm afraid I'll never be able to enjoy any of my favorite foods again. I don't want to go hog wild on them. Just every once in a while. And that thinking leads me back to the regret. It's a vicious cycle. I'm going to call my therapist tomorrow. Just wondered if anyone else has been through this.

Thank you for all the support. Things have gotten better. I don't regret as much as I used to. Lately, I've been feeling like everything I eat is upsetting my stomach. I've found that pita chips, baked ones not fried, sit well with my stomach, but I know they aren't very nutritious. I have a Protein shake for Breakfast, some type of cheese as a snack. dinner is the hardest part. I've thrown up more times than I want to. It's an everyday battle to get my protein and Water in but I somehow manage to do it. I can't stand the Calcium chews from Bariatric Advantage so I don't take them. I have bought calcium citrate in a pill form that I am going to start taking. I just wonder if these feelings are somewhat normal. I see all these recipes for good nutritious food but I don't make any of it! It feels like I would waste more than I would eat. I'm ready to feel normal again!!!!! lol!

Thank you everyone!!! Time really does help. For the first time in three weeks I don't feel regret. I'm not emotional. I feel like I am getting use to the way my new stomach feels. I have had all good results so far. My husband was amazing throughout all of this. And your words helped me tremendously.

Thank you for all the support. I do feel a little better now that I can eat soft foods. I'm not crying my eyes out everyday. I go back to work on Monday and I'm anxious about it. How do I fit in all the things I need and get my work done? I'm sure I will get into a rhythm. Everything feels different too. I have to re-learn how my body processes and digests food. It's a battle. I can't turn back now. I'm ready to be on the maintenance phase.

Hello guys and gals. I am about one month away from surgery and I am doubting myself on this decision. I had a moment of panic and uncontrollable crying last night. I'm afraid of the surgery itself and what I am going to be like after. I know the good outweighs the bad on so many levels. I'm ready to make the change, but I'm also terrified of it. I read through all the paperwork I was given when I first started the process and it just freaked me out. I have so many silly questions and what if scenarios playing out in my mind. Has anyone ever felt like this or is it just me? Up until now, I was so excited to have the surgery done. I tried talking to my husband about it (he's very supportive), but it didn't help ease my fears. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you!

@@Beni - Congrats on your surgery and weight loss! Thank you for sharing your journey. It has helped me a lot. Oh em gee!!!!! To be able to cross my legs!!!! That is on my positive list. I haven't been able to do that in.....well.....forever! I have always been overweight. I don't really know what it's like to be smaller and healthier with energy, but I can't wait. My husband and I went to Vegas three times. I had to stop several times because my feet and back hurt sooooo much. I could tell he was getting frustrated with me. He never said anything or made me feel bad, but I could just tell. I will take all your advice and put it into action. I know everyone is different, but like I always say, "knowing is half the battle, G.I. Joe." lol Good luck with all you do! @Delirose - Good luck with your upcoming surgery!!! I'm so sorry about the loss of your mother. I don't want to overstep my boundaries, but I'm positive she is proud of you and will watch over you forever. I understand what you mean about food. It is my comfort. I'm working with a therapist to break my habit of comforting myself with food. It's a battle but with all my newfound knowledge and this surgery, I think I beat it down. I'm sending you well wishes and prayers. Good luck! @@saj54539@yahoo.com - Good luck to you as well with your surgery. Like you said.....today, it IS worth it. And tomorrow will be too. I am also sending you well wishes and prayers. Thank you for sharing. Good luck! @@Rosalinda - I wish you all the luck for your surgery. Congrats on that beautiful baby boy. Just remember, you are doing this for him as well as yourself. You want to be there in his life for a very long time to come. I am find out that worry is a normal part of this procedure. The way I am dealing with it is, I'm making sure everyone I care about knows that I love them and that no matter what, I want them to be happy. Just a suggestion, maybe you could write your son a letter. Pour all your love and hopes and dreams into for him. He probably will never have to read it because you'll do great. Make sure that no matter what, he is taken care of and loved. The chance that something will happen is so rare. This procedure has come such a long way over the years. Trust the doctor, trust the program, trust that it WILL work. I'm not an overly religious person, but I think praying is a good form of therapy......for me at least. Trust in God as well. (Honestly, I normally do NOT get into religious discussions, but I feel like it could help. It's helped me.) I wish you all the luck this life has to offer. I'm sending you love and prayers for you and your precious son. You go girl!!!! To everyone I didn't mention above, thank you for all your wonderful words and advice. It has really helped ease the majority of my fears. I wish you all the best!

Thank you sooooooo much! This really helps ease my mind. I keep thinking that I'm going to be giving up so much, but then I realize I'll be giving up things that got me into this body in the first place. My husband loves to kayak and I've gone twice. Both times were hard because of my weight. Sitting in an airplane seat without a seatbelt extender....not a chance. To do these small things once I lose weight, well....that would be a huge achievement for me. That is what I look forward to. To have energy and join in all the activities I avoid would be amazing. Being healthy, that's my ultimate bottom line. It is so nice to know I'm not the only one out there who feels this way. Thank you again!