Thanks everyone I've actually grieved the loss, I think that the couple weeks of throwing me off my routine if what really got me. If I wanted to eat, it was whatever was at the house, because we were never home.
I do have a physical support group that I go to. I think you guys are right, I just need to sit down and remind myself why I'm doing this... All of the reasons. Even if they're simple thing like wanting to walk into any store and be able to buy pants.