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Thank you Betsy Jane and Edie for the support. Living in Asia and being Asian, I don't find it very comfortable to open up to my fellow asians. I tried to see a psychologist once to work through my problem and it got really strange. The conclusion of the whole thing is that I didn't really have a problem to begin with. It's more my fault though than anything. I do suffer from eating disorder. I do know that. I just can't seem to overcome it. Do you know anyone that can do that kind of counselling online and such support group?

I fell off the band wagon! Pls help me get back on. I lost 13 kgs in the first 4 months. Gained back about 4 kgs within the first year. And now approaching my year 2 I have gained back another 3-4 kgs. Whoops! I know my mistakes. I drink too much liquid with calories (lattes, coffee mixes, Cereal drinks) and I ate too much too! I find comfort in food so I guess whenever I am emotionally unhappy I am back to eating again. I puked a lot, too. So I know the band is working! I found sometimes if I chew really well, I can still eat a lot like going out to fine restaurants (ie. eat 3 courses of food (sharing dessert)). And I am so done with working out. I am so unmotivated. Please don't judge me and just help.... PS. my weight loss scale is NOT updated.....

Thank you y'all. I feel better already. I will definitely talk to my surgeon ASAP. Fingers crossed - it's nothing serious. Thanks for all your wisdom and support.

Looks like my bad eating habit (binge eating) is not going away. After 3-month great weight loss progress post lap-band surgery, I'm gaining my weight back. I've lost 16 kilo post surgery,only to gain 3 back in the past couple of months. I'm losing my motivation and my focus. I can't seem to focus on mindful eating-chew slowly, drink slowly, choose the nutritious food. I still crave all the bad stuffs, consume too much sugar, carbo. I still eat a lot at night (night after night) to fulfill something that's missing in my life. Many nights I puked the thing I've eaten and just to eat more afterwards because I was starving. This is awful. I think my band has either slipped or my stomach has expanded. I no longer feel full. I've had 3 fills for a total of 2.3 cc and yet I can finish a whole portion and I feel hungry minutes after. I no longer wake up in the morning and have that tightness feeling. I'm losing the battle and I don't know what to do. I am seeing a psychologist (something is haywire in my head) and I have started seeing a dietitian to help me with food choices and weekly menus. I feel awful. I don't know if I should see my surgeon - I've seen him so many times. I'm embarassed! I can't seem to be honest with him but actually he's an awesome, kind person. My heartburn is coming back too. I feel tightness in chest, I burp more and more. I'm having problems doing my pilates because I feel like whatever air I'm breathing in cannot go deep into my lungs from all the gas caused by my heartburn. I know what I'm doing is wrong. I just can't seem to make the changes I need to make. Thank you for listening to me and please do not judge me too harshly. :confused:

congrats, corinne!

I am very happy overall with my progress. I've lost 30lbs in two months since my op (Jul 6). I am happy to not have to worry if I'm going to be really bloated (from overeating) or not. I am happy to fit into clothes I haven't worn for ages. I am happy that I stay fuller longer. ... But I do get frustrated with the relatively slower weight loss (I noticed that I lost weight only during the liquid phase after op and after fills (I have had two fills so far)). My sis is getting married in a month and I'd love to reach my goal weight by then - which is impossible. But that's not the band's fault - more like my unreasonable expectations. I find it still hard day-to-day because old habits are hard to break. At times when I'm bothered I still want to reach for 'comfort' foods. I am bothered at the fact that I've lost mostly my muscle mass - I tried getting bk to working out but I am way too weak. I get quite upset about this. But overall..I'm quite happy with the band..it just needs a lifetime commitment and lots of patience and lots of venting (on this site - which usually gets you a lot of support and gets you back on track!)....

Thanks for the info, Kel. I'll let you know. My sis is getting married a week after that so we may be busy with last minute things...but I'll try.

Estela, sending prayers your way and to ur mom. hope she will be well soon...

my friends know i went through surgery but they thought it was only to fix my hiatal hernia. i decided not to tell them bc they gossip a lot and they are an insecure lot...one friend sort of guessed it but i looked her in the eye and denied it. cos if i confirmed it with her the whole world would know also. my family knows i have the band, select friends, my mom's immediate family and one aunt from my dad side. one grandma and one aunt guessed it cos i know abt the band from them for the first time - and the rest because i want a cousin to know to have it as an option for him.

Hi Kellie Where do I get infor on this lap band conference? Thanks. P

That is amazing! I am waiting for the day I'm not interested in food!

Dee Dee, Hang in there! I think what you said abt your dietitician confusing you with RNY may well be true...in my own experience, I never heard restriction of no cream etc, etc. As long as they are mushies (when you are at mushies state) or liquid (when you're at liquid state) you're good (regardless of ingredients). I was even told that I could have ice creams! And as long as you take it in slowly and small amounts. And you're so right about your body craving for things that it needs..I think you should just blend things your body wants to the right consistency. I resisted for so long that finally on my fifth and sixth week so two weeks before I got my first fill - I was eating solid food (chew well and slowly of course). I could not stop eating and I consumed whatever was in front of me...so pls listen to your body. I personally did not have great experience w the nutritionist I was assigned to also - so I just listened to my doctor the important things and modify things as long as they fall into the description of things that matter.... Good luck and keep us posted...