Countrygrrl

Thanks for the info !

I think it's really insightful that you recognize that fear. I knew I had an unhealthy relationship with food but it's stunning how uncomfortable emotionally I am dealing with issues with out food. I started therapy and had to look at how long food had been used to stuff emotions. All I know is after one therapy session I was uncomfortable not being able to eat poorly... Just as I was told I may!!!

Ok had a huge fight with my other half where I was told yet again how selfish I am and the roll of the eyes when I say I can't lift a 50 lb bag of feed. I hid and sucked on a half an almond roca. ????????????????????. I'm scared of what this is going to do.. Tummy is talking and I feel like I'm about to learn about why this is a no no. Apparently I still use sugar as a drug. Why do I insist on punishing myself when I'm upset with others. Ugh

So had a session with my new therapist. And we shall see how it Gos. I will tell you that the talking brought up food issues!

I called the bariatric staff and they told me I should flu like but to make an appointment with my PCP.

I feel like crap. My bones ache. Heck my hair hurts. I haven't had one issue post op. It never took me five min to get out of bed. I haven't slowed down an inch and now this. I'm sadly hopping for a flu I'm shaking and grumpy.

I know that feeling. With pre op diet and surgery I'm down 30 (16 pre op) and then I try something on that didn't fit right a watch a ring something. I also stop and laugh last time I lost this much weight it took 6-7 months!

I did too. I didn't sleep the night before at all!

I started putting hot sauce in my broth faze. I can't live with out rooster sauce

Thank you! I was wondering too!

I feel like crap. My bones ache. Heck my hair hurts. I haven't had one issue post op. It never took me five min to get out of bed. I haven't slowed down an inch and now this. I'm sadly hopping for a flu I'm shaking and grumpy.

I called the bariatric office and they said sounds like a flu but go see your dr

I had the bed time hunger in pre op and was told some non fat Greek yogurt was ok so I would cut up. Tons of veggies. Cucumbers, carrots and celery ect and get a dry package of the ranch dressing mix mix it to taste with then Fage non fat and munch munch munch. The other thing was sugar free fudgecixles

Just an update. I took action and got a therapist info and made the initial call. Self care is not an easy thing

Not gonna lie I chew up a Cookie and spit it out. Gonna call my best friend she's a councilor .... Who can't stand my other half and ask for a referral.

Omg can't you take a joke and get over yourself is daily.

I'm really started to wonder. I love my other half. I honestly do. I think that the shedding lbs are shedding more than I ever expected. I may have to find some therapy. But when I was young I went through a a few honest abusive relationship. The kind I couldn't ignore. That breaking point was fighting off a stabbing for half an hr. It was blamed on his drinking drugs. I feel like perhaps I've ignored verbal emotional cuts from this relationship because it's not what I know abuse feels like. I don't fear for my safety. But the controlling, the attempts to destroy any self esteem left is becoming more obvious every lb I loose. Today I was getting ready to go out with my guys. Put on my cute dress my heels I can fit not ( my feet are loosing weight) make up hair and I was fishing for a compliment... So so stupid like leading with my chin! I said, "I've lost 31 lbs since my pre op diet and I can't even tell." You can see my bobber floating in the water and yes! Bait is grabbed. "No....you can tell." In a low monotone voice. Me thinking yes I'm gonna hear something positive. I smile and say,where? My feet?"Smiling flirty kinda hoping I may be late for my shopping date. And I see it I just gave the opening to be hurt. " no your tummies getting all flabby." Me nodding grabbing my bag not willing to show it hurt. I hear that I condescending laugh I'm use to. " you use to be firm at least now it's kinda gross." I glare " your such an asshole." Walking out I hear. "You gonna have mommy pay for a tummy tuc too?" Now I'm sitting in my car re applying my make up. Wondering is this my hormones due to surgery or is this as bad as I think. I tried to cancel on my guys and that was shot down hard! They have been dying to start my shopping for my first goal wardrobe. And these silly queens just want to make sure it's something they can borrow. I feel like posting this showing too much and reminds me off the hiding behavior in my past relationship... Crap

Ugh I'm on day 7 and so itchy. Glad I found this

I didn't sleep the night before either. How exciting. I found check in to surgery time the worst. Just wanted to do it :0)

Sleeve wonder :0D

I 100% agree a hot topic. Thank goodness we don't all have the same views. How boring would that be :0) I promise not to bring up religion or politics ☺️

I have a huge problem with PITA. But just to narrow it down. Any ethical breeder I know who is an advocate for There breed spends most there time helping the rescue. 10 or so years ago PETA decided that we abused dogs by leaving them in crates between classes. So they staged a "demonstration" and released the dogs from there confinement. One dog was hit by a car and killed. I watched an 11 year old girl sobbing while holding her deceased best friend. Totally not the place for this but Zelot's are scary. I would if needed bail if that was my kid or my fur-kid

I love her guts!!! She rides on my shoulder leaping on my like I'm a tree and hisses and scares new people before demanding there affection. [attachment=50646:ImageUploadedByBariatricPal1420530875.014030.jpg]

I got one today. My good friend is stunning was/is a dancer has had 3 boob jobs two nose jobs and two Brazilian butt lifts. She's in her mid 20s and has a perfect six pack LOL. She said. "Wow your already loosing boobage. We may get a deal if we both go in for work at the same time." Umm thanks... Umm I think.????????

Wow what a good job!!