Hi everyone I had my RNY with silastic ring surgery 12-9-14 everything went great I started out 356 and I'm weighing in at 330 now. it was was way more painful than I had anticipated but I'm still dealing with a ton of pain through my left side and my back. Is anyone feeling shame for how they got themselves? I've been feeling really ashamed and embarrassed that I let myself go to this point. Would be interested to hear thoughts