SouthernBelle69

BMI right around 35/36 - weight 207. I researched for weeks trying to justify my desire to have the surgery. Its a lonely place when almost everyone around you say you look great but you are internally struggling because you know the truth. The battle to keep the weight off, stress and the mental fatigue it causes you that no one would ever understand. I'm currently in the Pre-Insurance approval stage but my surgeon and staff doesn't think its going to be a problem. My insurance BCBS only requires the 35 BMI w/comorbidities, psychological evaluation and the surgery must be preformed at a Blue Distinction Center. After speaking with the psychiatrist, he confirmed my decision not to share with others about my surgery. My husband and only a selected few (friends that have had the surgery) I will share for support. Unfortunately, I CAN'T TELL MY CHILDREN! Girls, one 25 and two in college. They would think I want the surgery for selfish, cosmetic, lazy or trying to stay young reasons or bottom line narcissistic. Sign....Striving for a healthier after 45 life but must remain in the closet.