sleevemom88

I have reached a lot of NSV that I never thought about before. Sitting curled up, fitting in the middle seat of the car, comfortably fitting in benches and chairs when out with hubby, crossing legs, sitting with knees to chest, painting toes, wearing "regular" clothes, buying a form fitted dress, wearing heels without feeling like my feet will fall off, Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G920A using the BariatricPal App

From 334 to 194 and maintaining. May try for a few more lbs but I'm happy where I am. Sleeved Dec 2014 got to 194 in Jan 2016 I'm 5 ft 8 in and 27 yrs old Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G920A using the BariatricPal App

I was sleeved in December 2014 weighing in surgery day (at my highest weight) at 334 lbs. Never in my life did I think I would be able to say this, or do this, or keep at this... until I met my sleeve My birthday is coming fast. I will be 27 a week from today! In this next week (heck, with luck tomorrow morning) I will honestly be able to say I have taken the greatest trip ever imaginable and I plan it to be a one way trip, never to return. Ladies and gentlemen.... I'm going to ONEderland!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I found it best to do mini goals along the way but have one major goal for myself. Maybe not my end result goal, but just an extra special goal I thought was going to be impossible to get to. Let me list them, maybe it will make more sense that way. I started at 334 so my first mini goal was 299 --- to see under 300 After 300 my goal was to be the weight I was when I married ---- 280 After 280 I wanted to see 249---- be under 250 After 250 was the weight I was when I met my husband --- 220 After 220 was to see ONEderland!!! (I am ONE pound away!!!!!!) 199 was my "ultimate goal" and my "big goal" when I started. I wanted so badly to see it, but thought I would never make it. Now that I am (almost) there I have decided I can start more goals. My doctor says 160-165 should be my ultimate goal. Next mini goal ---- 185 Then --- 175 From there, its all bonus. Really, honestly, in my heart and soul anything below 199 is a bonus for me!! I havent been under 200 since probably middle school!

I have to tell you, I reallyl do think the way you are feeling is normal. Or maybe I want to believe it is normal because it is how I feel a lot of the time too. I LOVE the post about the new and old shoes. That entire post struck me so hard, because the truth of it was nearly blinding. I do believe that we find it hard to let go of the old us because we spent so much time accepting that the "fat us" was the "normal us" and that it would be that way forever. We yo-yo dieted, we gained and lost and gained again and it seemed like it was a never ending cycle and we would always be the "fat us" until now, suddenly, something is working. Its terrifying to think this is working so well and we have to tell ourselves (I partially feel it is a cushion, a protection of sorts) that it may not last forever because it never did before. I think once we see that the weight is staying off, we are in complete control and we really can manage ourselves and keep ourselves small, that we can accept that the "old" is gone and the "new" is here to stay. It is super important though to be sure we do remember that we are still the same person. We love the same, hate the same, care the same, worry and fear the same, and most importantly think and feel the same... we are just as awesome as we were before, but all that awesome and all those feelings are just in a much smaller, more able package now