remerton

I was overweight in Junior High. I grew 6" one summer and didn't gain an ounce. For the next decade, I was at an appropriate weight. I actually lost weight in my late 20's returning to my high school weight. No sweat. Then, in my 30's, I had a bout of major depression. Over the next decade, I was on every SSRI & SNRI that had been created in the 1980's. I gained a LOT of weight. However, I told myself it was better to be alive & heavy than unmedicated & dead. I guess it was the right decision at the time. I've been off medication for most of the past 10 years. Unfortunately, the weight has stayed - fluctuating some, but never really departing except for a brief period when I was taking testosterone. The weight started falling off me then - until they found prostate cancer. Testosterone treatments abruptly stopped. All weight lost was regained plus a bit more. Then diabetes. Then a heart attack. Then sleep apnea diagnosis. So now, I am in a hospital weight loss program. I have lost 20 pounds since August, actually a few more than I really expected I could lose with portion control & some increased exercise. I am considered "obese" instead of "morbidly obese". Some people have questioned if I should even have surgery. However, I doubt I am going to lose much more without it & I would really like to be be rid of this bag of medications I carry. I can have surgery in March, once I am past the 1 year mark of my heart attack. Decisions will be forthcoming.