Hi everybody, waiting on banding surgery approval, but this is such a great thread I just had to chime in.
I don't remember a time when I wasn't fat. I specfically remember being 145 in 6th grade...maybe the torture I dealt with imprinted it on my brain. School can be brutal to an overweight child. I was also apart of the clean up your plate generation. Having obese grandmothers on both sides of my family didn't help. Then if that is not enough let's throw in parents and two siblings neither of whom have any weight issues and voila' you get a 270 woman...eventually. My mother, bless her heart just had no idea how to deal with an overweight child, so she pushed the diet issue. Made it a control issue, until no matter what diet I was on, I was going to gain weight...it was mine and there was nothing she could do to change it. Of course, to this day if I even smell vanilla slim fast powder, I start heaving.
I could blame on instances of sexual abuse from strangers as a small child, but ultimately the power to lose weight belongs to me. I am like all of you, I eat for whatever reason I can think of, sadness, depression, happiness, boredom...the entire gamult of emotions to eat. But I have been waiting for three years for this surgery and my time is at hand. I want to be healthier for my two kids and not be the mom that has a hard time taking care of herself hygenically and had to have her kids her kids help put on her sandles...no more!!!! This is going to work for me and to hell with all the demons that wait to whisper negative things in my head.
A future sucess in the making.
270 and waiting!