Keeper

I found this site while looking for online support groups for Lap-band patients.  My surgery is scheduled in ONE week and all of a sudden it is just happening so fast!  So I knew I wanted to get to know others who have been on this journey before me, and I definitely want to get to know those who are starting this journey right along with me.
 
I've been overweight for basically my whole life.  I am sure that I was an average toddler/young child, but I remember having poor self image as young as 4th grade.  I remember thinking one time that if "I could stay this weight until I graduated high school," I would be fine.  And I wasn't overweight until high school.  I am a triplet, identical to one sister and fraternal to the other.  Our fraternal sister was the "pretty one" - aka, thin.  So I turned myself into the "fun" one.
 
I went to culinary school, I bartended, I centered my life around food and fun in such a way that I could get away with bad habits and fit in.  I met my husband when I was 22 and we got married and had our first son when I was 23.  I have gained weight every year since.
 
I am desperate to claim the me that I know is inside.  I have tried so many things.  I even went to an eating disorder clinic to see if that was my problem, but it wasn't.  I am scared to death to do the band, but more scared not to.  Wish me luck!
 
11-10-14