Luna222

Ladies, I'm in tears :-( I just tried on a bunch of swimsuits I had, before I go buy a new one. And most were too big, naturally. Like 10 yrs ago, I bought a few 16/18 and 14 suits on clearance at walmart, as my "motivation". Well my measurements say I should wear a 14/16...I tried these things on and it was disgusting! Sooooo tight, I looked like a stuffed crab, all my skin and jiggly stuff popping out everywhere. I keep telling myself it's because they are walmart swimsuits, and walmart swimsuits suck. But I'm really struggling with my body image right now. It's like I was so excited, and it was just shot right down. It makes me want to go workout hardcore...but I have absolutely no energy to workout lately. I gathered my laundry last night to go put in the washer, and I woke up this morning with my pile of dirty clothes still at my feet on the bed. I had the other day off, for traffic court (I think all of my weight went to my foot lol) and all I did was go to court in the morning, I stopped at the grocery store to do some light couponing, and I went home. I was exhausted. I took a 3 hr nap, woke up, went outside for some air, came in and lounged the rest of the day because I had no energy. I don't know what's wrong with me :-(

Lol I am so there with you all about the arms! I really didn't think I'd be bothered so much by it, but I am sooo self conscious with it. I wore a sundress last weekend without the sweater over it, because it was so hot out. I was ok, until I tried to take a selfie lol, and then again when I used the bathroom at the restaurant. My boyfriend calls my jiggles "his stuff" lol. He tries to make me feel better about it, but he doesn't quite understand :-/

Woohoo size 8! Awesome! You look great!

It's definitely a nice feeling at the same time embarrassing lol. Now, every time I walk past them in the office, I feel them looking...I feel like a piece of meat! Yesterday, my boss got us all lunch, so there was pizza and a sub platter, potato salad, hot wings....and I go in and grab a square of the pizza...they were all like "that's it? Come on, get a sub, have some salad, have some wings!" And I'm not about to be like "no thanks, my stomach is the size of an egg now, I really can't"...so instead I just smiled and said no thanks, I'm on a diet...so of course I get "what?? You don't need to diet, you look perfect, damn girl you're hot! Eat a chicken wing!" :-O THAT'S one thing that gets tiring, the explaining, or the trying to be polite when people try to shove food in your face lol. Wow, your man's ex, lol...she's probably so jealous!

You look amazing!!!! :-)

I'm loving that my necklaces are fitting now! I found a pic from two yrs ago, wearing the necklace I wear every day, and it looked so uncomfortable, like it was choking me..now when I wear a good supporting bra, I find it it my cleavage lol. Huge milestone....I walked around in a sundress all day yesterday in 85° weather, and NO CHAFFING!!!

I'm so sorry for your loss :-(

YES! I live a small town that I was not born in but have lived here for 28 years. Since my kids are grown, I rarely see people other than the 14 people that work in my building. I go to work and go home in the country. If I go shopping, it's usually out of town. So when I do run into people that haven't seen me since before starting this journey, I almost feel embarrassed, especially when they ask "how" I did it. I chose to only tell those I'm close to. Just this week I've told two people that I've been working on this since last June and I eat high Protein, low carb, low calorie and work out (which is the truth). I have had a couple of men look me over, I'm 56, and that makes me uncomfortable. Guess I'd better get used to it. I find myself not wearing real form fitting clothes. And I still have 25 pounds to go to get to my goal! lol! Yes, the whole being checked out by men thing makes me uncomfortable too, but I think it's because it's never happened before. I just started a new job last month, and myself and my best friend are the only two females there. The other day, my off day, my friend told me the guys were all asking where her hot sidekick was. She said they were all saying how cute I am, calling me hot little mama. So I go in the next day, and I'm embarrassed already, and they all stare...and I feel them stare..and I start turning so red...lol it's flattering to be the "hot" one, but it's definitely not something I'm used to. I don't know how to react lol

It's really taking a lot of getting used to whem people tell me I look great lol. I mean, before, people would tell me I looked nice, or I'd get the "oh you have such a pretty face" stuff, or I'd be in weight watchers and losing a little bit here and there and people would say "are you losing weight? It's starting to show"...and I would always smile and say thank you, then crawl under a rock because I felt like they were just saying it to be nice. Now, any time I see someone that I don't see on an every day basis, they go crazy over how I look lol. It's kind of embarrassing! Can anyone relate??

@@amylynns I was trying to respond to your post about the gallbladder, but when I hit the little quote thing, it brings me to respond to someone else's post, Ellen with a lap band. Lol so weird. Anyways, I had my gallbladder removed a few yrs ago, so it def couldn't have been that. I'm thinking it was just a tight muscle and it must have been right on the spot where food passes thru, like pressing on it. All gone now lol

Me too :-\ It took me forever to pass the 200 mark. I got to 194, now I keep going up to 197 and back down and back up. So frustrating!

Amylynns, I'm glad it is benign! Still so much for a kid to go thru, poor guy. Hopefully it slows down like u said! :-\ Beni, the pain is gone. I didn't get a chance to call the surgeons office on Monday, because work was so crazy. By the time Tuesday came, I didn't feel it anymore, so I'm assuming it was just a muscle thing in my back. So for now, I'm just letting it go and if it comes back, I will call for sure. I hope you feel better soon! :-)

Ok, I need some help...for the last day and a half about, I've had this pain in my upper back, in the middle but a little to the left...and when I swallow food, as it goes down, it hurts so bad in that spot. Does anyone know what this could be?? It's worrying me!

Hope everything is ok with your son! <3

Omg I find my hair EVERYWHERE!!!! I need to get a little dust buster vacuum thing to keep in my bathroom, cuz every morning it gets all over the floor and my sink vanity. I'm scared to cook for anyone other than my parents and my boyfriend lol, cuz I don't want someone else pulling a hair out of their food lol. Sigh. So I had an mri of my knee last week, just went for the results yesterday. The arthritis in my knees is worse now. My knee caps are turned out, something with the way they were when I was born. Over the years it get painful, and being overweight makes it that much worse. So he said I have pretty much no cartilage in my knees. There's some but it's very very thin. Soooo, that means I can't run. He said no running or anything with high impact on the knees. And I will more than likely need a total knee replacement down the road, but because of my age, we aren't entertaining that thought yet. Ugh! I am so disappointed, because I signed up for my first 5k, and I was hoping to get into more and more. But..now I can't. The damage was already done when I was so heavy and put so much weight and pressure on my poor knees. So sad. I am very happy that I had this surgery when I did though, because I probably would have ended up with a knee replacement in the near future.

Yea that's what I am at right now, about a cup. I still want more if I eat less. And that's an old habit too I'm bringing hummus and veggies for a snack today, hopefully that will keep me satisfied. I'm trying not to wash my hair every day now. I used the shower cap this morning, and it's killing me lol. I feel ick. Even tho I showered! I agree, it is def hard, I always worry that this is it. Hopefully not!

I have the itchy scalp and sort of dandruff too! My hair loss is slowly decreasing, but still comes out alot. But the scalp thing is a new thing, I just started noticing it last week. I was in the shower and my scalp felt tingly and then itchy...after that it's like every day I'm scratching my head! Beni, I have noticed that as well. I can eat way more than I feel like I should be able to. My ditz of a PA doesn't seem to think that's an issue. Idk. I don't like it though. I feel like it's going to bring in old habits, eating too much, always being hungry. :-(

@@Shadow427 So jealous lol. I liked my surgeon, she was great...but I probably won't see her again, ever. Funny thing, I was talking to my sister in law earlier about the PA. She asked how old she was, I said, I'm not sure, she seems young. So said, look her up on facebook, maybe it will say her age. Sooo....I looked her up. And sure enough, she's a couple of years younger than me, so she's about 32. And guess what else....I WENT TO HIGH SCHOOL WITH HER!!!! Anyone that knows me, knows I hated my hs...most kids came from wealthy families and we're stuck up and mean. Her sister was in my graduating class...she was one of the wealthy stuck up families! Lol, I KNEW there was a reason I didn't like this girl! So crazy! I haven't been to a support group since November. I am wondering if maybe that will help some. The one with the Rn is probably the better one

That's sucks!!! Idk bout there, but it's a gloomy day here, I'd want to doze all day too! Hopefully it wasn't an emergency with a patient!

I'm surprised they don't run your labs first? I had to have mine done at least a week before my appointment so they'd for sure be back to go over. I'm loving my collarbone too!! And my hip bones! And the first thing I do every morning when I'm still laying in bed is feel my belly, or what used to be my belly. It's SO flat when I'm laying down, LOL! Still a bit jiggly when I'm standing up though. My goodness, I got new black dress pants. I'm SO used to buying them so they're kind of baggy, but my daughter would NOT let me buy the baggier ones when we were shopping. So my new ones are "form fitting." Well, my honey could NOT keep his hands off me all day at work yesterday, LOL!! ( we work together) He kept telling me how hot I was, loved it!! You would think so, right? Ugh. I don't like it there the friendliest people at that office seem to be the ladies at reception. THEY are the ones that say, wow you look great! I'm not saying the PA has to be all like OMG, but it's just blah. Not something that makes you feel good about yourself. The nurse that weighed me barely spoke to me at all today. I try to make small talk and it's just silence. Ooook. So then the PA comes in the room, and instead of maybe saying hi, how are you? How's things? She walks in and says, any problems since last visit? And then I say not really, except that I stalled for a month and a half...and she just smiles and nods...and there's silence...and I'm sitting there like, say something b$!#@...lol...and idk, maybe it's in my head, maybe I'm crazy, but I feel like they are silently judging. I hate that feeling. And then I look at her skinny self, and I just want to blurt out, have you ever been fat a day in your life? Do you understand what it's like to be us patients?? Probably NOT. Lol, ok rant over. So THAT'S how my 6 month appt went today lol. I totally do the same thing when I'm laying down lol...I'm obsessed with my ribs and my belly lol. My bf will get all on me and he goes straight for the chest lol, and I'm like noooo, feel my ribs!!!! Lmao. And he does the same thing with some of my new "tighter" clothes....I'm had on a maxi skirt the other day, with a nice for fitting top...and we're at his sister's, and he's groping me. I said omg, it's just a skirt! He said but your butt looks so good! MEN!

Yess...love the hip bones too!!! And the ribs lol

So, I have my 6 month post op tomorrow! I wish they would send me for blood BEFORE the appt tho, so we could discuss it AT the appt lol. Oh well. I guess we'll see. I am definitely going to talk to the NUT tho, try to get my scale moving some more! I can't stop feeling my collarbone lol, it's been soooo long since I've seen or felt it!

A couple of the shirts I got from Kohl's :-) I didn't take pics of the others, I will soon! Lol, even after losing all this weight, I'm still stuck on wearing my leggings and boots! Some things never change lol

You look great!!! You lost 10 sizes already, that is definitely something to be proud of girl! :-)

Ladies, I went to Kohl's the other day!! For the first time in years, just because their plus size stuff always sucked whenever I went. But it was so awesome to have pretty much the whole store to choose from...a bit overwhelming at the same time tho! I spent 4 hrs in there lol. I really like the Dana Buchman line for casual dress clothes. I got some cute shirts, in Large! I even tried on a Medium in a Simply Vera dress...cuz I THOUGHT I grabbed a L and XL. But I grabbed XL and M. I figured what the heck...and it fit! Holy crap! I ended up with a 16 in pants tho. I still have a big booty, that's not going away :-/ it's so crazy how much cheaper things are though! 4 dress shirts and a pair of dress pants, all for $60....that's the price of one Lane Bryant shirt! It's a whole new world lol